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[solitary_ground]

I really hate the world demon. I know that it's all official and stuff but it makes me feel like I must be a bad person and so I've decided I'm just not going to use it. I don't want to be a demon. Demon is just way too associated with evil to me. So I spent a few hours today googling after my counselling session trying to seeing if I could find a

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[deirdre_ionuin]

Right, the buzzing. Yeah, that's another thing we can do. Take a person's...essence or whatever. If you take it, it can make them feel ill, or make them pass out. It can't kill them, but it does make you get addicted to it if you do it too much. I did. And when I 'take a soul' it tends to make me a little...off the handle, so to speak. You have to be careful with it. Because if you're hurt and you take a soul, it can heal you. So it's not all bad. It's..complicated instead.

And, hey? You're awesome. I love that you read all that crap and instead of scaring you off, you're with us. I love that. :D

[solitary_ground]

Another complicated thing. Okay, I can work with that as well. Why don't you buzz? Does it mean I couldn't take it from you and other people like us?

I don't want anyone to hurt you. You're my family now. I feel like all of you are becoming my family. It's really nice. I've missed having people around who care about me. (At least... I mean... you do, right? I guess that's a bit presumey of me just as assume that you people care. I mean, it's sort of yours and Peter job to find people like me really.)

[deirdre_ionuin]

Because either we have the same frequency so you can't feed off me, or we lack whatever it is we can take from others. Other 'demons' just won't buzz.

Of course I do! Believe me. I care :D It's not my job to care. It's Peter's, but he's good at it because he actually does. And I'm not someone who can fake it.

[solitary_ground]

=D

[slinkster_ghoul]

Wow, you are SO Deirdre's sister with the TMI and everything.

[solitary_ground]

Sorry! I just sort of talk before thinking and you'd think with typing I'd go back and edit it all but then this post would probably just be really short.

I feel like all this stuff might be better said than all trapped in my head too. By showing people how crazy I am it makes me feel a little bit less crazy kinda.

[slinkster_ghoul]

Nah, it's cool. Well, knowing that you wanna kill people sometimes is less than cool, but a lotta my friends have been through that, and okay, a lot of the time I wanna kill people as well, though I don't have the superstrength or anything, I kinda get the anger issues. I remember I thought I was a demon once, but yeah, I'm not.

I don't think you're 'crazy', either. Not any more than anyone else.

[solitary_ground]

I kinda get the anger issues. I remember I thought I was a demon once, but yeah, I'm not.

We're you relieved or disappointed? I feel like if that was my situation I'd be all both because finding out I was like this was like "Wow, okay, there's a reason I almost killed my mother even though I love her" and then on the other hand it's kind of like I hate the idea that I'm different like this because everything I planned for my life has been messed up.

Deirdre says I'm not going to get much older looking and I can't even imagine that! I mean, what happens when I want to get married and have kids? I'm going to look like a twenty year old when I'm taking them to high school. I just feel like this whole immortal thing is going to get REALLY complicated.

I think I'd be less tetchy if I could work out how my wings work though.

[juniper_berries]

Wow... I think it's wonderful that you're so committed to finding out everything you can about yourself, and the people around you, too. I'm not a demon or an angel, but from what I've seen, self-awareness is one of the key things in being able to define exactly what kind of person you are. You can be (and from what I've seen, you are) a good person, and it doesn't matter what label people put on you. I guess you could even just say you're "different."

In the interest of sharing, because you've shared a lot, you might find it interesting that I'm immortal. An angel made me that way. I don't think every angel can do it, especially young ones, but I wanted it because Deirdre is immortal too. I never want to have to leave her. I don't have any of the physical or mental "superpowers," as it were, but I am unkillable now.

Hey... it's really good to know you're here and on our side *smiles*

[twilightrobe]

Dude, always awesome to have another hero on our side. Not that we want to have to kick arse, but the time inevitably comes. Good to know there'll be another boot with us. You'll figure your stuff out, too. This is all new to you, and sounds like you're doin' pretty well with it all. It'll all be good, and you don't ever have to be alone.

[in_spectre_mors]

if the anti-Christ is teaching demons the way then it's all going to be pretty rubbish in the end.

Ah, you and Deirdre are undoubtedly siblings. You both have such unique ways of putting things! But we do live in a strange world, where an angel sings alongside a demon about freedom of faith...