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Stress Induced Dreams
High School Dream: I always have reoccuring dreams where I'm at Sierra Vista and I'm in a small classroom with a brown door getting instructions on my class schedule and school info in general. This time, Saul was in my class. We walked around looking for my locker, number 25. The main quad's locker numbers started at 2235! While we were walking, ( Read more... ) -
The Bad Dream I Was Unafraid In
I've had a lot on my mind lately, maybe this is why this dream came about, but yesterday wasn't particularly taxing or draining. If anything, it was great cos I saw the season premier of Adventure Time...
The dream started off with me in Mexico with a group of people. I want to say it was with my San Diego friends and with the Filipino members of ( Read more... ) -
To Believe or Not to Believe...
I got a phone call from my stalker ex who I complain about a lot. He left me a voicemail on a new phone number about how he has been diagnosed with cancer again, first time in I think almost 10 years, and if I want to make peace with him to let him know. First of all, this is a sad situation where I have to first BELIEVE him about something like ( Read more... ) -
The Changes in my Meds aka Why I've Been a Bitch Lately
Last month my doctor upped my dose of the Seroquel I was taking to see if it improves any of my symptoms. Well, it made me a lot more focused and remember more but it also made me a LETHARGIC, RAGING, IRRITABLE BITCH. Everything was irritating me, I wasn't happy at all. When people wanted to talk to me I would try to be polite but I was just not ( Read more... ) -
Short Answers to the Weight Loss Query
“Curvy women are real women. Skinny women are real women. Women who have had boob jobs or lip enhancements or liposuction are still real women. Size 0 may make no sense mathematically, but a woman who wears that size is as real as the one who wears a size 16. What makes us “real” people is not the shape of our flesh but our basic humanity. And we ( Read more... ) -
Horrifying Diet Dream
So in my dream last night, I was a group leader for a weight loss circle for older people. I was also still in high school. In school, I was talking to some people and during one of my prep periods, I'd go into a classroom and help the people learn how to lose weight. There were only 3 people I remember: an little old European lady with special ( Read more... ) -
Dream Featuring Grandpa <3
Last night I had dreamed that all my friends and some co-workers were going to a country fairly far from here, I think it was New Zealand or Japan. I don't know why we were going there except that my entired trip was free if I flew then and there. I was very excited and thought, well maybe I can combat my fear of flights and flying, this will be ( Read more... ) -
A Bit of a Possible Health Scare
Since two months ago my doctor has been asking me to take labs for my enzyme levels, specifically my liver. A few days ago, I got a call from the radiology department asking for my last menstrual cycle to make sure I wasn't pregnant because I need an ultrasound. This freaked me out pretty badly because up until this point I haven't had any signs of ( Read more... ) -
Remembering My Past: Journey in Weight Loss
I'm begining to feel conflicted about my weight loss: I've always owned the weight I am since I started gaining weight after high school. The biggest I'd ever been was 235 and I was miserable. I'm definitely more comfortable at this under 200 weight, as I know a lot of bigger girls are comfortable at their plus size weight. I see so many things ( Read more... ) -
Let's Talk About Mental Illness
What have you been diagnosed with?
Up until 2 1/2 years ago, I thought clinical depression, self mutilation, anxiety disorder and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder from 12 years of sexual abuse and rape from my babysitter's husband. Now it's Bipolar II, which I fought until that diagnosis made sense. I'm angry, depressed and have my manic states that ( Read more... )