Birthday was a hit! We had a 95 degree day and 51 people show up! Tavi is seriously popular. We timed her nap just right, from 10ish to 12:50 (party started at 1pm). She woke up dazed and pleasantly confused as she made her way through the house and yard filled with party decorations. We got her cake from Allies Donuts and she picked out the ( Read more... )

You don't know it, but I tested to see if I was pregnant today and sadly it was negative. You played in the tub while I saw the one lonely line appear, as it has been doing for quite some months now. I feel selfish thinking about how I could ever love another as much as I do you, but I want you to feel the same for a sibling as I do mine one day ( Read more... )

Tavi and I had a great day. She slept in until 8ish and took a 2 1/2 hour nap this afternoon and in between those sleepy times we listened to her new Annie record and then watched some of it. I also bought some chalkboard paint and made a chalk board for her bday party, did two loads of laundry and later on Danny came home and we went to Home ( Read more... )

Tavi is sick. She was battling a fever last night into this morning. It wasn't too bad, but I hate to see her ache. She was so so sweet the whole time. The first thing she said to me this morning (after sleeping 13 hours) she said, "oh mama! You got a boo boo on your chin? A pimpo? I kiss it better?" And then puckered up and kissed my pimple ( Read more... )

Today a stranger told me I was really pretty. It caught me off guard! Especially with no make up on and in my work clothes... The end.

Grandma passed away last Wednesday in the presence of my dad, mom and Tyler. She took her last breath and is no longer in pain. She is with God now in a place she has been preparing for her whole life ( Read more... )

Grandma is almost gone. She was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer back in the fall. She had her bladder removed after the new year, suffered infections and afterwards declined rather rapidly. My mom and I saw her last Saturday. We brought her soup and she sipped on it while I brushed her dentures and combed out her hair. When my mom asked if she ( Read more... )

Last Monday, I woke up feeling achy. I pushed through, like I usually do, and carried on with my work day. By my 4th patient, I felt a spasm and sharp burning feeling overcome my back. I went to the ER, 3h hour visit for which I forgot to take ibuprofen for, and the sent me home with muscle relaxers and a week off of work. Later that night I ( Read more... )

We sing this a lot. And Christmas songs, too. Tavi, you talk in sentences now and we have a lot of fun! I hopped in the tub yesterday with you and we played with the "Kay-zhee phome" (crazy foam). You put some on my chin and we laughed as I said, "hohoho!" To which you replied, "Santa beah?" It made me giggle to see you giggle. Then I giggled ( Read more... )

Fuck it. I don't need to be up at 3am, yet here I am. This happens everytime Danny drinks or whatever then falls asleep. It's not even worth rectifying so I'll just sleep on the goddamn couch. This bed is so warm though. I'm so livid. I need to be up in a few hours for work. My heart it racing and I can't fall back asleep. I'm so tired. ( Read more... )