I'm feeling fat lately, or just out of shape. I should change that feeling. Tavi is the best human on the earth. She remembers EVERYTHING. She is just barely 20 months old and asks me questions daily and makes connections to things, "where's dada? Oh, dada bye bye? Dada car?" I said tonight dad went to get food and he would be home soon and she ( Read more... )

Or I do, at least. I don't know if that's true actually. I wish to have less self doubt. I wish to understand others and sympathize more. I wish to connect. I feel I should be more thankful, rather than complain about my sore left shoulder and lower back. I look at myself in the mirror and see a bony figure, skin sagging, matter of time ( Read more... )

Than seeing and hearing Tavi scream "mamamammmamma" when I get home from work. She literally loses her shit, and my heart just about explodes. Can this be real? Sometimes I ask myself that question, more often now. She is the best thing in the world and I am so excited for each day that comes with new Tavi things awakening! Also, pretty sure ( Read more... )

My grandma Wanda. I love and miss you. I think of you often. I remember how you always showed up with bagels and the newspaper. I remember how you drove me around, everywhere. I remember how you took me in for the night when I was having a hard time. I remember what it smelled like in your apartment. I remember how brutally honest your were ( Read more... )

I just put you to bed. You make me so happy. We sang and danced to xmas songs and Taylor swift and missy Elliott and that watch me nae nae song. You look at me and study things each day. You dangle my earring as I say, "earring" your repeat it, so easily. Your latest word is "purple" and you say it so funny like "pawpawl" man I love you Tavi. ( Read more... )

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Danny and I went as Toni and Candace from Portlandia. Tavi was a parrot and lagrima was a candy corn!

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Her name is Irka (pronounced hear-ah) and she rules. She has a daughter the same age as Tavi and is new to RI. We have a dinner date in a few weeks and I'm excited to get to know them! Today was busy. We went to the arcade for the vintage fair and then went to the steel yard for the iron pour (which we only got to see part of b/c Tavi was ( Read more... )

My mother cut her hair. She cut it without telling me. She cut it even though I politely told her 'please not to' many times. She cut it not once, but who knows how many times this past week. She cut it because she said she had jelly stuck in it. She barely cut it, she said. My mother gave my baby her first haircut and I'm pretty upset about ( Read more... )

I've always pictured myself with a family. We would live in a house and have a dog. We would laugh and sing together, make fools of outselves before heading to bed. But there is one particular moment I've always dreamed about having that kind of just naturally happened, and that's pumpkin picking. It wasn't even that eventful, I mean it was ( Read more... )