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so tonight was a good night. went to the g, got in for free as usual, got free alcohol, did nothing the whoe night except sit by the bar and got free bud...im not gonna complain. mike said if i was staying he would train me on the bar.almost a good reason not to leave. i would love to do that and not have to spend $400. and i like my job at ( Read more... )

alls i wanna do is sleep lately. i don't know why. i don't like it, it makes things hard to get done.

yea i wish i knew. i thought i kept feeling my phone go off but it never was. im thinking it 1 am, no one's going to call me now. next thing i know i get a phone call from someone in one place basically where are you i need you? and than someone calling and asking why im not be my room when my lights are on? my heart was not here at all, it never ( Read more... )

ever feel like you're going to die that day? like this car ride will be your last, and you regret leaving on such terms with that person. like some freak accident is going to happen and thats going to be the end. thats what today felt like, i had a pit in the bottom of my stomach that was engulfing my body, i felt like today was it. the end, im not ( Read more... )

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i fucking feel like shit. i think i've used fuck in some sort of way at lest 200 times tonight from 10:15 till now. i can't help it, just every other word outta my mouth is fucking fuck fucker... i'm clamed down since i got home. i guess yelling at tiff helped. it sucked. we ended the conversation with hanging up on each. she told me to go fuck ( Read more... )

so i know you all love to make fun of me for being emo...but i hate to disappooint you all but IM NOT FUCKING EMO! really. so what i have some tattoos and yea sometimes i'm not the happiest fucking person in the world, but thats reality. just like nothing is forever. i don't care what any of you fuckers say nothing is forever. one day i will die ( Read more... )

i had a horrible fucking day after two hours of being at work. it didn't get any better. alls people seemed to do today is fucking complain. i hate my job. there is no reason for me to here at all. people can deal without me. im so fucking over ct. it fucking sucks.

im not sure what state of mind im in at all. im not sure whaT i wanna do. i get ideas in my head and i think about them and than i don't do them. i sit here and i write. i don't understanding why im thinkong some of the shit i thinking right now at all. i feel like i should be changing who i am because i did something wrong or because i didnt' do ( Read more... )