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[sometimes______]

i need to take some intiative. i need more friends. or, even, just one more. or to better the relationship with a few of the ones i have.  relying on one makes it all the easier to feed my anti-narcissism and all the easier to be forgotten. 
yea i know, no i really know, and that's what i say, that it's no big deal, because it's not, it's fucking

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[pixiechan]

i'll be your friend.
just so you know.

[sometimes______]

hahaha, you're adorable.
thanks. lots.

things have just been coming apart a little bit back here, you know?
it'll all recenter itself soon enough; last night was resolved quickly; like i said, it really didn't matter. sometimes i just feel like a bag of chemicals, because despite all evidence pointing to the proper way to feel or act my body just does otherwise.

ANYway.
thank you; you're too sweet sara.

[guitarman41]

Wow Sam this is very familiar To Me because It reminds me of two things :

One is the lyrics in a song called "Running Up That Hill" originally by Kate Bush but more recently covered by Placebo.

and

Two is How felt back in high school and early college when tony used to go hang out with other people instead of me like Stefan or Ed or Eric or even Cait. But By now I'm Sure he has felt it too from the other side.Because I have sort of become the person leaving for others and he has become the one who was left behind{at least thats what It feels like}

And the worst part is none of this was ever intentional on either of our parts to make the other feel forgotten, it just happened thru a strange twist of fate.

I'm sure She didn't do it to you intentionally either.

"But If I only could make a deal with God get him to swap our place..."

so yea listen to running up that hill.

jesi--->"I LURV YOU SAM BRAUN!!!!!!!"

[sometimes______]

thanks guys.