at what point did i lose control? cracking a smile used to come alot easier to me. i feel too empty inside to care about the things i once cared about. this apathy im feeling is no fun. its not like im slacking on responsibilties or anyting, i just dont know who i am anymore. i dont know what i want..and worst of all, i have no idea what i am ( Read more... )

tonite was a good time. i went out to local heros with my friends. we had some laughs over beers and watched the game ( Read more... )

you know what i miss?? Drive in movies. how awesome was that concept. too bad some dumbass corporation thought that it would be a better idea to tear the only one in ottawa down and make a normal, more "modern" looking theatre..with a food court. seriously, drive-ins were awesome for so many reasons. my cousin tells me they still have one in ( Read more... )

yesterday was a horrible day..but today im in such a good mood and i dont even know why. im excited to start school come fall..and see some friends again and meet new people....i got that package in the mail from the place i am gonna volunteer at. im kinda nervous to work in a distress center..but im sure i'll learn alot. i think thats one of the ( Read more... )

so i went out today after gym to give resumes to places i wouldnt mind working at in the summer. i came home and cleaned up my house a bit thinking a friend was gonna drop by. but she didnt. no call no nothing. i guess she was too busy...just as well as last night. its all good though..im used to people talking and it meaning shit by now...its my ( Read more... )

so today was a really good day...im getting through each one by keeping busy. i'm no longer a depressed sack of shit. or at least im doing a damn good job at hiding it. i'm way too sentimental for my own good. seriously. like, fuck the past it doesnt mean shit now. i really dont know how i feel. im overcome with so many different emotions..in ways ( Read more... )

so today was fun..i went out to this sweet restaurant in carleton place with my family for mothers day. im glad my mom had a good one ( Read more... )

so i had hella fun wednesday night. i love playing zaphods so much. it always sounds so good. however, after the show i came down with this horrible illness that is making me hate my life right now. i can hardly talk because my throat is so closed up. it even hurts to drink water. Its not like i can get medecine for it either, since its a virus. i ( Read more... )

last night was a good night..went to some party in merivale with kim and jon. it was kim's friend's birthday. jon desilva is the craziest character ive ever met in my life. as if he made me box him! i had a huge bump on my head and a fat lip going into work today. but it was a good night all in all. alot better then sitting at home doing dick all ( Read more... )

i saw anberlin live tonight. what a set!! those guys are definately going huge places. it definately kept me entertained the whole way through. you dont see a band that does that too often. juliana theory also did a good job ( Read more... )