Go to Hell ( Read more... )

i royally fucked up this weekend-- and what worse is that i wanst even drunk when i made the decision to screw things up.

bad life choices are currently my specialty.

I used to think people were good, now i dont. Faith is easy to have when you can trust people, trust them to not leave or hurt you, trust that they care and will be there for you ( Read more... )

Tomorrow should be awkward. Yay for spending a night doing all the things i would be more than thrilled to do with friends or with a guy i was interested in. Problem is im not interested in him, there isnt much in common, and the entire conversation is generated by me because try as i might i cant get him to say more than 3 sentences. And i cant ( Read more... )

ok so against my better judgement i sent it. i probably shouldnt have but please dont tell me that i shouldnt have because i regretted it the minute i sent it but its done now. For better or worse. Most likely worse but how much worse could it possibly get ( Read more... )

ok so this whole entry isnt really meant to be read. As silly as it is i need somewhere to write down everything with g, just so its out, all the things i wish id said or done. Maybe writing it will make me feel better about it, probably not but its worth a shot and since g is no longer talking to me there is no harm in writing it. So basically ( Read more... )

im not sleeping tonight in favor of sleeping the day away tomorrow. So im sure ill have some decent entries by the morning.

Step one you say we need to talk ( Read more... )

Realizing that in about another 30 hours, I wont have seen a single friend of mine in at least a week. Seeing E will be a week, H and K will be a week and a half, D&G will be a month, schaf, fulton, etc, will be nearly a month ( Read more... )

There is a simple reason that i have an answer to every suggestion. Engineering is problem solving--- find the problem, develop solutions, and check to see if the solution is going to work or not. I have nothing but time to run thru every solution and outcome that i can possibly think of. And in certain situations i can see how things are going ( Read more... )