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.17.
Well... It looks like I`m 17 already)
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.Special.
It`s been a long time.
I can`t understand why does it fell like this. This weird feeling is lasting for three years now and I know it won`t stop until decades pass by.
I don`t really know you, anything about you, we exist only in the ICQ window and blog pages where we met that day, so long ago. I have never seen you, real you, I was never able to ( Read more... ) -
.Imaginary lover.
You used to be are one of my imaginary lovers. And as you`ve never seemed too real to me it feels so strange to know that you are somewhere
And you definitly are, although I may forget about you for months.
and then suddenly remember.
When we happen to talk to each other I sometimes think halfkidding "I still can say I love him".
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.Exams.
Oh.My.God.
There are two months left I can`t belive that will happen so soon and I already hate those exams with all powers of my heart.
That damn testing system is far from perfection and it feels like we are some sort of material for experements.
And the quantity of what has to be learned in this eight weeks gives me the creeps. While being one of ( Read more... ) -
.The importance of doing smth.
I guess I just have to do something to be satisfied with myself. That`s not a big deal - to have something to do - but that helps me not to get sick of myself. Because when I do nothing I just hate myself. -
.Pieces of reality.
I`m a little bit late but though:
Happy New Year to everyone
My year have started perfectly and I hope that everything will be going this well till the 31/12/2008.
I prayed for confidence and persistence - I need them to make my dreams come true. It doesn`t matter that they may seem insane and too far from what can become real, but I know that my ( Read more... ) -
.Sunday evenings.
Oh my, these peaceful evenings are just adoreable.
My week starts at Sundays, and it`s quite normal for the enrollee who is going to enter Academy, which is one of the best high schools in our city and even in the country. And that`s such a pleasure to go home after the long day of preparatory courses.
While being jolted in the tube - and I always ( Read more... ) -
.Самое сокровенное.
... я из красного вина, тонкого аромата дорогих парфюмов, жестокой логики, кусочка безоблачного неба и высотных домов, где правят миром корпорации, из сладкого яда и легких полуулыбок, холодного расчета, из солнечных лучей в волосах, из острой нежности и изящной ледяной жестокости.
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.forgiveness is for sale.
I am asking you to forgive me right now.
Before I have done something.
Before I have told you
that you are as useless as this unreal november.
Because to me you are just a chess-man. Nothing more.
Don`t you feel the winter in my flatter words?
Remember: you will never be anything I care.
So, accept one more lie - I am sorry.
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.как закалялась сталь.
Однажды с неосторожно_глубоким вдохом .что-то. вместе с воздухом попало в легкие безнадежно больной прошлым девочки; растворилось в крови, пустив предварительно ростки в стеклянном сердечке. И настал момент, когда взорвалось мириадом чувств, которых она не знала раньше, которые были под запретом раньше, которых не могло быть - раньше. Сигаретным ( Read more... )
