my life is falling apart. i lied, it already fell. i need to find a full-time job with benefits and a good pay, and i cant. there are two things holding me back and yes, i know that there is nothing i can do about it. i know im lazy and would rather not work, but i also know i cant do that ( Read more... )

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goooooooood morning. its 6:48 right now and i havent slept yet. haha. i cant. too much on my mind. ya know? anyway. i was thinking all night what i wanted to be for halloween and me and sarah came up with something....lesbian slut girlfriends. but i thought of something better. lol. she is gonna be a slut. but i decided i wanna be a vampira!!!! a ( Read more... )

hey everyone. i have been calling places to find a job right? well, the babysitting/nanny one just called me back. and she was like "u are what we are looking for to put u with a family" they like find poeple to be nanny's for familys. and then she said that they are REALLY needing live-in nanny's. meaning thats my new home. i would LIVE there. to ( Read more... )

i hate my mind sometimes. it forces me to think of things i def. dont wanna think about. i was reading sarahs old lj from when we first met and shit. i liek to do that sometimes. but then i read all the shit about a MILLION other poeple. like how much she has fallen in love and how many poeple have liked her or do like her and like poeple shes ( Read more... )

hey everyone. i feel like typing. im talking on the phone with stra!!!! omg!! its so fucking awesome to be hearing her voice! wow....we jsut talked for like almost an hour. that was awesome! ok anyway. i love those two girls. they are def. the best ( Read more... )

i got fired today. first time in my life. i dont know what to do now. fucking shit. this is the rest of my life. im on my own now and i have no support. nothing underneath me. so if i fall, im dead. i fall to my death. i need to find a job. salary. pay off my dad. get my own imsurance and pay for my car...try to get one that isnt a piece of shit. ( Read more... )

ok. sorry for that earlier about my dad. just cant STAND him sometimes. anyway ( Read more... )

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im sad. left sarah. and as soon as i walk in the door my dad goes "lindsay...we need to talk" he said that over the weekend, laurens car needed to be fixed. so they were looking for a way to work it out so laurens car can be fixed but he said everyone here was "too afraid" to drive me car because of the PRIDE sticker i have on it. my mom couldnt ( Read more... )