Like vyctori I thought I'd be okay reading your March 26 entry because I'm back in Europe, and even while in Japan, I wasn't ever affected by the quake... needless to say I'm not and I desperately wish I could go to Iwate and give you that hug you deserve. Saying "I hope you'll feel better" just feels hollow, but I still hope that you'll be alright eventually.
Hey miss, don't blame yourself for having a hard time despite things "not happening to you." Disaster, natural or otherwise, affects everyone differently, regardless of whether anything traditionally traumatic (ie, you seeing the wave, or knowing someone who's died, etc) happened directly to you. You are, whether you like it or not, in the midst of a disaster zone; it doesn't matter than you're not in the "worst" of it, because it's affected you, plain and simple. You are still affected by the power outages, the shaking/barrage of practically constant aftershocks, the rationing, the limited transportation, the infrastructure that has ground to a halt, the country that is under the intense scrutiny of the entire world. And to top all of that all, you're in there as a foreigner. A stranger. Yes, you're in a country that has captured your heart and that you love with your whole being, and yes, you've made friends and you've found people to connect with, but you don't have family over there, you don't have a best friend, you don't have
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And by the way, when I say that it might be helpful to people-watch so that you can see that life does go on, I don't mean that as a way to hurt you even more. Because seeing other people go on while you hurt inside can be as unhelpful as it can be helpful. So don't let toxic thoughts like, "well, they're getting along just fine, how come I'm not," occupy your time, okay? Because life doesn't work like that. Like I said a couple of times, every person reacts differently and if, if it helps to see how other people are reacting and if that gives you hope that you can continue to find normalcy in the little things of day-to-day life, then you should do whatever makes it possible for you to see that. If something like that won't help, then don't try to force it. Find the thing that works for you, but don't stop looking until you do find it
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I can't imagine going through all of that. I think you're incredibly strong for managing as well as you have so far...even though you say you're not okay. And don't feel bad for the way you're feeling either. This is still something that affects you and where you're living, so it's perfectly reasonable.
I'm sending you tons of virtual hugs, since I'm obviously not in Japan. :3 I know it's not as easy as just saying, cheer up, but I hope you're able to find some things to brighten your days, and keep your spirits up. If there's anything I can do for you...anything at all, please don't hesitate to let me know! Take care of yourself and keep us updated. We're all here supporting you and the rest of Japan!
I can't say anything that others haven't said a thousand times better but .. I'm so sorry and I can only pray that things will look better for you. Maybe for an hour one day and then watch it grow. I'm so so sorry and I'm here for you. love love.
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I'm sending you tons of virtual hugs, since I'm obviously not in Japan. :3 I know it's not as easy as just saying, cheer up, but I hope you're able to find some things to brighten your days, and keep your spirits up. If there's anything I can do for you...anything at all, please don't hesitate to let me know! Take care of yourself and keep us updated. We're all here supporting you and the rest of Japan!
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love love.
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And you take care of yourself, definitely.
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