So here it is 3:46 in the morning and I am wide awake. The one thing I love about getting up early is having an automatic coffee maker! Thanks mom! Nothing much has changed with my situation. I am continuing to sort out emotions from Michelle's death. I have to admit, the days are getting a bit more easy to deal with. There are still times ( Read more... )

I am at my parents house in Boaz. At times it can be a bit boring, yet it is also very good to be home. Things are still the same. I have to admit that the days are getting a bit more easy. I dont cry as much now, yet I still have a lot of things going through my mind. My mom and I spent most of the night last night making drinks and trying out ( Read more... )

Since Anne filed paperwork showing her "intent" to get custody of my kids, my charges against her are no longer valid!!! BULLSHIT! SHE took the kids from ME! As GOD as my witness, that law will be changed after I get my kids back. I dont know how to go about changing it, but I will use my situation as an example so that other parents dont have ( Read more... )

Ok guys, I am not dealing well with it right now. Nope, not at all. I find myself in another stage of sleepless nights. I wonder why life has to be so damn unfair? Why did she have to go now? I was not ready for this. I was not ready to face these fears and emotions. I hear people say all day long that they are thinking of me. Emma calls to ( Read more... )

Today started off just as any other day. As soon as I was on the road to work, my mind began to drift off to random thoughts. As hard as it is to believe, I still find myself wondering am I just asleep and going through some horrible dream? Is Michelle just away at some remote hospital waiting to come home? It is then that I realize that I am ( Read more... )

So here it is, my first entry to an online journal. Gosh, what a week! Last week my life was pretty normal, or as close to normal as one can get? With one phone call at 5am on 12/5/06 (also the date of my youngest daughters birthday) I recieved the news that my wife had just passed away. She died in the arms of my oldest daughter Hope. I was ( Read more... )