he's just like jacob black lol

 I haven't posted in a while, but then again I haven't done much of anything in a while. Which would explain the gaining weight. It really does bother me. Fucking blubber. And yay pink eye not allowing me to wear contacts or make up to make myself feel the tiniest bit better ( Read more... )

i seriously feel like i give more than i take from people. i'm always the one to listen to people's problems and offer advice and empathize or sympathize with them, them try to comfort them and offer advice. i show them how much i care about them. lately it seems that if i try to say what's bothering me or what's on my mind that people move the ( Read more... )

the break up was completely unexpected. it's finals week so i have no time to recover or feel any of the pain. all of my emotions are just festering and i know once i go home they will pummel me like an 18 wheeler.
i hate not being able to feel...i hate not being with him...

 still kind of in the same place mentally. i still really don't want to be in school itself but there's no way i could leave or take time off. that's what the summer's for. just somewhere along the line i decided i was done here and now i'm suffering because of it. i have 5 days to do a research paper and there are just too many things for me to do ( Read more... )

 why is it that i can never post anything here that's happy? it's always when i'm about to burst that i feel the need to write. i don't even have an explanation for this shit. i just can't take it anymore...i need to get out of here. get out of the routine. go back to people that get me. go back to people that will respond and help me when i'm down ( Read more... )

 today is no good. i hate being such a sad bum and i hate that i can't pinpoint a rational reason for being so upset ( Read more... )

i hate that my anxiety's been high again. like every time i'm alone it just gets really bad. it's odd how physical it is too...today during class my chest tightened up and it got a lot harder to breathe and i just couldn't understand it. i hate that i have anxiety...i still haven't accepted it as a part of who i am. i think it's been prominent ( Read more... )

where the fuck is all this judgement coming from? like of all people....my friends ( Read more... )

 So quick update about life because I feel it's needed ( Read more... )