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Empty
I'm so empty these days. How is it that crises can leave one feeling so empty. I would weep for the spectre of the me that could have been, if I could feel. Then I do feel, ripples and waves of anger and agony, suppressed with force of will or bored into quiescence by continuous banality. Games are played on phones, TV watched and then sleep is ( Read more... ) -
Looking for evidence that therapy works
I should really be less surprised that therapists are often less than evidence-based and solution-focused in their methods.
“A clinician who can’t tell you how many patients get well isn’t going to care that much if you get well.”
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Hmm, it's been a long time since I've posted ( Read more... ) -
In search of irrational optimism
It's weird, I wrote the (really miserable) previous post on the train home and now I feel a lot better. How weird. I think maybe I *am* better at picking myself up than I used to be.
I just have SOOOOOOOOOOO much work to do it's actually making me INSANE!
And I have read the cure for depression is IRRATIONAL OPTIMISM. According to pure_doxyk nyway. So ( Read more... ) -
The Black Dog
I am moved to write today because I realised that for me, rather than Churchill's 'black dog on his shoulder', for me, depression feels more like someone killed my dog. It is a physical pain, gnawing in my chest and stomach, like when Oz says in 'Buffy' that it feels like he's missing a body part (after Willow breaks up with him) "like an arm. Or a ( Read more... ) -
Greetings
Hello there.
This journal is mostly friends only. I may occasionally post things that anyone can see, but many of my posts are filtered. So please comment to be added. Hi! -
I'm giving you all my love... I'm still looking up...
Don't watch if you are not in the mood for sappy.
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School stories
My observation was a disaster! The kids would not shut up! Just would not! And my pacing was slow and they didn't understand a lot of what I meant to do... and I needed to punish them more and it was just awful. I felt utterly wrung out and really down afterwards.
Everyone gave me lots of useful advice, including my university tutor... it wasn ( Read more... ) -
Playing catch-up
So what have I been doing recently?
I've had to absolutely scream at a student because he didn't turn up to my detention. (I felt awful afterwards but it's the only way to deal with some kids or so I'm told.) I've been more tired and stressed than I have ever been, planning lessons for classes of about thirty boys from the ages of 11-16! This ( Read more... )
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