i miss my guy friends. everytime i've tried to call seth in the past few weeks he's been busy, or hasn't picked up, or doesn't call me back. he's finally coming around and it makes me feel better. seth is my best guy friend and i've missed having him around or even talking to him for that matter. i miss my brothers. i miss being the only girl and ( Read more... )

i got tattoos.


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yeah i take it back. worst valentine's day. i can't believe i let my self be completely vulnerable to you. you made me feel special and worth while. you knew how i felt. you told me i was amazing. you told me things that got my hopes higher than i have let them get in a while. yeah fuck you. don't call me on valentine's day hoping i'll cheer you up ( Read more... )

so today wasn't really bad or good. i had a good time in photo cuz we critiqued each other's photograms in class and my teacher liked mine. it made me feel good because i thought he was going to thnk it was crap. it was the only one i got to do because i almost passed out in class and had to go home. so that made me happy. later i found out h.s. ( Read more... )

so last night ashley calls me asking me if i want to go offroading with her, matt, and weird brandon. seth had obviously decided he didn't want to hang out so i accepted. so we go. well it's out in like, i wanna say riverside type area ( i really don't know) and i'm slowly realizing that they don't really remember where they are going. well after ( Read more... )

today wasn't looking so good. i didn't go to photo because i felt like crap and i was a few minutes late to h.s. being home wasn't much better. i finally talked to serge about the distance. it's over. he said he was finally ok with being single before he met me. he tried to overcome that but it wasn't working. it was the most honorable reason any ( Read more... )

i don't know what's worse. searching for the perfect person and never finding them, or finding them and not being able to be with them. the time we had was beautiful and to me you are perfection.

i love swings. because in the moments you're flying, suspended through the air, everything is alright and you remember what it is like to be a kid again and not have the worries we carry now. in my case it's the thought of losing people, whether it be a friend or anyone else important enough to care about. as you rush forward, you've left ( Read more... )

i really don't know whether to call last night a success or a failure. i was alone all day from like 2:30 to midnightish. i sat around all day either on the computer or watching movies. it sucked. oh and serge couldn't come over so happy, ian, paul, and seth came over and we went on an alcohol run. we got a bunch of bitch drinks becuase no one had ( Read more... )

i hate when i work alone cuz then i sometimes start to think about things that drives me crazy. like i said, things are going good with serge. but when things go well and i'm really happy, that's when i usually get hurt. i really like him. i'm scared. i really want it to work. i'm so sick of going from guy to guy. i want it to end right here. the ( Read more... )