i feel like i should be more sad about leaving. i'm getting a little sick of this waiting game. and i really want to see cole again. i keep thinking about him and how worried i am that he might not like me outside of coachella. but he asked me to do all these things with him this summer. so we'll see how it goes. i just want to get up there and ( Read more... )

so my plans got a little derailed but it seems to be working out so much better than i could have hoped. friday my mom got an offer from her friend up in washington to have us stay in some extra rooms in his 6 bedroom house. saturday night she told me and basically asked when we were leaving. she said she wouldn't go unless i agreed to go with her ( Read more... )

settling back into daily life has been interesting. i really think coachella changed my perspective on a lot of things. i feel like things have the ability to be more simple then i've allowed them to be in the past and i want to start embracing that theory. friendships are still proving to be somewhat of a challenge for me. it seems that coachella ( Read more... )

so first and formost coachella was easily the most amazing weekend of my entire life... no joke ( Read more... )

One thing I hate more than anything is being talked down to. I'm not perfect and I don't think of everything but I'm also not a fucking moron. I really hope this weekend ends up being as fun as I had hoped for because as of right now this is a little reminicent of the way palm springs started out last summer. A part of me wants to say fuck it and ( Read more... )

something is missing. i'm happy but at the same time i'm not. my life fell apart last december. i lost my home and nearly everything i own is in storage and if we can't pay the bill (3 months worth) it is going to be auctioned off on the 22nd. but on the up side i continue to love my job and 2 days ago i got a desk which takes me one step closer to ( Read more... )

i'm not single anymore. happy happy happy fattie.

it seems like now that i'm really happy with someone all these guys that had hurt me before are wanting to hang out with me or are asking for my advice on shit. fuck em'. it doesn't work that way. you hurt me, i got over it, i'm happy with someone that i really like and likes me. oh and ass hole has realized that he really fucked up and has decided ( Read more... )

it's funny how things turn out. you hang out with someone and really click with them but think nothing will ever happen because of another situation, then fine out they have feelings for you too and didn't want to act on them for the same reasons. i love life and am really happy.

like the day after the guys left i started ating this guy then dumped him exactly 2 weeks later because of some drunken instances. well today i found myself missing him so i imed him. then i found myself on his couch after work. i do lie him but i can't be with someone who isn't going to treat me right. in other news... i think i have a date this ( Read more... )