I love the gritty, imperfect-but-still-wonderful quality to their relationship. Jared's insecurities and worry were very tangible, and I appreciate that there are still problems in their lives but they're going to be able to weather them together.
Wow, this is such an intense story, with sort of a happy ending. Loved the part where Dan talked to Jared, broke my heart to know if shit happened, Jared might be the last to know, and that would be horrible.
That aspect of it really upset me too, but the truth is that Jared had no legal standing in Jensen's life at all. It's the sad reality for so many people.
I'm really pleased you liked this, thanks so much for reading.
I spent about 90% of this story wanting to punch a certain someone straight in the nose, and smack the other one upside the head until he started demanding better for himself. I have a certain sympathy for the requirements of closeting, particularly for the military, but it is still incredibly hard for the person who's stuck in the background. And Jared just...refusing to believe in his own worth, to have some identity that wasn't just waiting on Jensen and fixing cars. Oh, so painful.
I feel like I have to defend the characters here somewhat, as they are supposed to be flawed. Jensen is selfish and thoughtless when it comes to the effect of his job on other people, and Jared is very shy and lacking in any real confidence. I really wanted to write about someone who wasn't a high achiever but was stuck in a rut going through the motions.
I also really wanted to write about closeted people. It's not something that gets written about much in fandom, except as a plot point, but I've come across a lot of people who remain closeted to their families or work colleagues for various reasons. In this story, there was no massive reason why Jared never told his mom the truth, except that he didn't really want to, and I wanted to write about that.
Anyway, I'm glad you liked this and thanks for reading.
No, no, that wasn't criticism! You did a fantastic job, and they are very, painfully real characters. It's just that evoked strong emotion, and good writing always makes you feel anyway, so I wanted to share and say, um, success! I guess. :)
This is wonderful. Poor Jared, not knowing, reduced to lurking on the edges of Jensen's family just for a bit of news . . . his conversation with Dan just about made me cry. Love this!
Aww, thank you. That part really upset me too, as Jared has no claim or legal standing in Jensen's life at all, and would be the last to know if anything happened to him. Thanks so much for reading this.
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I'm really pleased you liked this, thanks so much for reading.
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I also really wanted to write about closeted people. It's not something that gets written about much in fandom, except as a plot point, but I've come across a lot of people who remain closeted to their families or work colleagues for various reasons. In this story, there was no massive reason why Jared never told his mom the truth, except that he didn't really want to, and I wanted to write about that.
Anyway, I'm glad you liked this and thanks for reading.
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