haven't written in forever figured it was time for an update. things have been ok except for shit in my love life. dudes suck, so do chicks actually. it's been really lonely. there's no one i connect with anymore. no one understands me and i know a lot of it is my fault. i mean i push people away in order to keep myself from hurting but then i end ( Read more... )

i'm livin in the fast lane
i'm livin for the moment
my time is runnin out
and i don't think that i can stop it.

i am completely speechless. don't you love it when you waste time and energy on shit that falls through? that's how everything in my life is right now. EVERYTHING. goddamnit. i seriously could fucking scream right now.

you ever feel like everyone you involve yourself with is a lost cause? like everything you do is in vain? i used to me this independent, fuck a relationship, i don't need anyone kinda person. i've recently realized that all of that is lost forever. i am so dependent on the feeling of being needed that i can't be alone anymore. there is someone who ( Read more... )

♥"Who are you to judge the life I live? I know I'm not perfect and I don't live to be, but before you start pointing fingers, Make sure your hands are clean." -Bob Marley♥

words cannot capture the experience i had last night. the best was i can describe it is "wow." i had my peak experience. and it's all thanks to dave matthews band and a little drug called Psylocybe. i decided to trip at the concert a long time ago, even before i got the tickets. but i never thought twice about what an amazing experience it would be ( Read more... )

ANI DIFRANCO ( Read more... )

it doesn't matter whether it is past or present once you find out you've been cheated on life stops for a minute. you rerun good memories of what happened between the two of you and try as hard as you can to figure out where the fuck everything went wrong. was it when the sex turned to shit? was it when the fighting started? was it a combination of ( Read more... )

hey hey! i'm so bored. it's like 2:oo. i'm lonely. i feel like shit about so many things that have been going on. my selfishness is getting the better of me. i miss comfort. i miss being able to be in someone familiar's arms. i miss someone playing with my hair, or randomly touching my face, i miss cuddling. i miss awesome, mind-blowing sex. i have ( Read more... )

here's to the last 8 years ( Read more... )