I want to be a hippie

at least for awhile

like on the weekends

i want to smoke weed, and listen to fun music and go on hikes...yeah, be in nature. sweet.

So much has changed in a year...and yet at the same time nothing has changed. It is crazy how so many things can happen in a year and then the same old shit is wrong. Really, I might be able to say the same thing if I was talking about 5 years ago. Is that my fault? Of course it is ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do anymore. I can't fight. I can't. It is just not in me...I'm so tired ( Read more... )

maybe i need more friends on here...but then i would have to make more of my posts private. i will just keep my one friend and hope she pays more attention to me....ho hum. lalalala. twiddling my thumbs...

I am going to go to church this Sunday I think. It sure can't hurt...I do know that.
Wanna go?

she lifts her skirt up to her knees ( Read more... )

I am sorry. I know I have hurt you beyond repair. But, that is what we do right? We hurt each other. I know I am beyond repair as well, so I guess we are even. Even....what exactly does that mean and where to go from here? I just don't know. I am sad. I miss you. But, then I try to think about the details and become so confused ( Read more... )

smeared black ink. your palms are sweaty and i'm barely listening to last demands. i'm staring at the asphalt wondering what's buried underneath ( Read more... )

U are my only friend.
on livejournal

and in life.

i am sick of feeling like josh is cheating on me. i am so paranoid sometimes. god. why can't he stop looking at porn? why can't i trust him? i am having scary thoughts about not wanting to be married to him. I am terrified of what is to come in our lives. he is a time bomb to me. searching myspace for a secret profile that doesn't exist. god, i ( Read more... )