sickness & sex dreams

[sophiaptrillo]

Both of my best girlfriends are dealing with really terrible illness-y things right now. And it just doesn't seem fair. Because I've been really shitty to my body for at least a decade and, besides my mysterious cough-disease, I'm fine. I don't WANT an illness!!!! I'm just saying, these people are younger & healthier than I am & it sucks that they

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[honkeebeat]

i have those weird masturbation dreams too. but im always trying to jerk off in the middle of somewhere really public. like the fucking mall or like a show. i hate those dreams. because i wake up and im like "now i just lost my fucking hard-on, fuck"

[sophiaptrillo]

Well, I always AM somewhere really public, but I'm trying to find a place nearby to quickly rub one out. In this last dream, I was running from one public bathroom stall to another, but people kept staring at me through the tiny cracks in the stall doors. Buncha bastards. And you are so right: when I wake up, I still feel like doing it but I'm all sleepy & shit & I know it'll be totally lame to even try. Last night before bed, I made myself jerk off even though I didn't really care about it because I was like, "Well, you tried so fucking hard to in the dream, just fucking do it." I love masturbating but at the end it always makes me feel kind of sad because I wish I was having the real sex instead of it just being in my head. I don't think boys feel that way. They don't give a shit.