I am tired. So fucking tired. I feel like I'm 80 years old. My ankles don't even work in the morning. All I do is eat SHIT & drink SHIT & work SHIT & sleep like SHIT at shitty fucking hours. I am done. I am ready for a change. In everything ( Read more... )

Today is Father's Day. Awesome ( Read more... )

I am very sad about everything ever.

Both of my best girlfriends are dealing with really terrible illness-y things right now. And it just doesn't seem fair. Because I've been really shitty to my body for at least a decade and, besides my mysterious cough-disease, I'm fine. I don't WANT an illness!!!! I'm just saying, these people are younger & healthier than I am & it sucks that they ( Read more... )

I'm dizzy from cleaning so much today. Where does all that dust go? IN YO FACE!!! So I finally got my own computer again. YAY!!!!!!!!! My first & last computer was a bottom-of-the-line model from like 1998. My sister sold me her very new one for only 200 bucks, wow! Now I can stalk more hot Icelandic boys on MySpace, read even more celebrity gossip ( Read more... )

Last Mother's Day, I remember writing an epic for my mother on LJ, only to have it erased by strange computer forces I'll never understand. Not this time ( Read more... )

So I think "That's How We Roll" is making me a little nuts. I am always rolling, we are always rolling, that's how we roll, rolling all the way to fucking crazytown & back. Even when I consciously decide to NOT roll for a day, some charming asshole in little, tailored black pants & dyed eyebrows calls me up & demands that I roll. Oh, well. That ( Read more... )

So I've been computer-less for two months or so. Also without cable TV. But hey! I have wicked cheap rent! I've been on vacation from work & it's been so, so great! I never want to work ever again! Strippers & madness & crazy, beautiful friends & spending shitloads of money on nothing but fun. I need to do something with myself. Creative things. ( Read more... )

So lately I've been wondering about What Happened. What are the millions of events that brought me to this very minute in my life. Maybe this thinking started when Glenn & I watched a show on Discovery or some shit called "Connections." This show is basically a giant nerdfest which takes a number of things & explores how they're related/ how they ( Read more... )

The only other thing I have to say is that I love my bitches. I love you all so fucking much. I have had the best days & nights with all of you. I'm not giving up on going out or hanging out. I just can't keep this bullshit alive anymore. And Nat: I still totally have DUMPS-fever!!!!!!!! So I hope we can still do that ( Read more... )