If it hasn't been said before, it definitely needs saying again. Making friends when you are 25, sober and in a new place is impossible. I am all alone here. I tried to make friends but one was a basket case and the other won't talk to me anymore because I was accused of stealing, couldn't prove it and lost my job. If I were single, I'd find some ( Read more... )

Since I have begged by so many people to start writing in here again, what better time than now! Well, yesterday was my birthday and a complete disaster I might add. All I wanted to do was have a birthday I would remember. One that I would look back on and say "damn that was such a good time." I need to remember that shit like that doesn't happen ( Read more... )

I will never be loved. No one will ever love me. I am going to be alone forever. I hate what I have become. I have given everything for him and he doesn't love me. I want to die so bad. I just wish something really bad would happen to me so I don't have to feel like this anymore.

It pisses me off so much that my friends are willing enough to give me so much shit about being stuck up my boyfriend's ass yet when it comes to hanging out they can never seem to pick up the phone and call me. It's hypocritical. I've lost friends because I've come to the conclusion that I am tired of being the one who does everything. Why can't ( Read more... )

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1. The ultimate test of love that drives a heart wild by lovingly surpassing all the wrong one has made and making it right ( Read more... )

I feel like a fool. I shouldn't have said anything. I shouldn't have. I can't take it back. Why do I continue to put myself into these situations. I fear that my hopes are just that, hopes. And they will not become reality. What's a girl to do? I wish I had a life remote.

the hopeless romantic wishes that he'd come here and sweep me off my feet like in the movies and give me this long, heart felt speech right out of a love story. I see that he's online and i sit. I sit and stare and wait for him to say something. He doesn't. I don't know what this means. I of course, read into everything. So i think, "i've gotta say ( Read more... )

I just don't know what to do anymore. I am so numb. I'm a zombie. I can't fucking think anymore. I'm going insane. I can't keep listening to what everyone else is telling me. It's not fair. My heart says one thing, my head contradicts it. I'm so confused and until I get a better understanding, I might always be confused. This, has seriously been ( Read more... )

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