is that

I know.

in a perfect world you would say "my relationship is really important to me too. If the weekend is all I have for it then that is what really I need to keep it strong." I mean..... I really can't do this on my own. If you really want this then you have to do something about it too.

I'm going to school bitches! Yay for me!

so first off.... I'd like to point out the fact that VH1 is gonna have a "metal" month and in the commercial there is some devil looking chick strapped up in bondage and shit rocking out with a warlock guitar and, OH guess what.... the fucking theme song of the commercial is LAMB OF GOD!!! yeah Boyyyeee. I thought that was cool of course. My ( Read more... )

I give up. I don't know what else to do. Apparently there is something wrong with me.

I give you everything. I do it all for you.

My life is a complete mess and I just keep getting fed bullshit after bullshit and I just keep eating it. I am going back to work at Bank of America so that I get better money in my unemployment. How fucking sad is that. I need a drastic change. I need cards. All of them. Out on the table. My head is my own worst enemy and I think I need to see ( Read more... )

*sigh* I feel good but not right about now. I hate my job and I am miserable almost and it is so hard to stay till the end. I really need to go to school because my work fulfillment ratio sucks balls. I feel empty most of the time. I like how Nikki brought it to my attention tonight that I really need to figure out what my time is worth. You know, ( Read more... )

Nicole plus free drinks at Jillian's equals NOT GOOD! I think that alcohol and I are no longer friends and I think that I am totally ok with that. I was so drunk last night I don't remember ANYTHING after the bar. I remember peeing in Starbucks. I remember getting to Friday's. I remember calling Casey and him saying "can't you wait till tomorrow?" ( Read more... )

So.... the boy and I, are A-OK. Good good. I love my babe. He's being really good to me too. I am so happy about that. He does more of the little things that I wanted that used to bug me because I never got them. It makes me feel like I matter. I just want work to be over so I can devote more time to ebay and selling my shit and making money. I bet ( Read more... )