I feel like something is missing. I can't figure out exactly what it is but it is a big something because I feel like there is this hole. I'm going to hang out with Amanda tonight and I'm gonna try to be matchmaker and set her up with Gregg. He won't leave me alone and I want him to so I'll just pawn him off on her. ahahaha I'm such a bad friend. ( Read more... )

not having your period for a really long time and then getting it.... sucks. It was nice to not have to worry about it for so long. I can't wait to start using this ring thing. I'm only gonna have it for 6 months though unless I find another job that gives me benefits. Ugh.... I'm in the mood for no one today, I don't want to talk to anyone, I don' ( Read more... )

so, today is friday. I just spent the last two days (and nights) with my boyfriend. I feel like when I go there, that's it. There's no one else in the world and it's just the two of us. It weird. I like it a lot but at the same time I don't. It makes coming home so much harder. I need to get a job though so that we can have money to do things, I ( Read more... )

So i said i wouldn't get on the computer... I should be going to sleep because I'm just super tired but I was more hungry than anything. So... I made me a sammich. I went all day without taking my trim-spa. A whole freaking day. It's insane, I know. I dunno... the past few days I've just been feeling so damn good that I feel like I don't need to ( Read more... )

I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo high. Oh my fucking god. Franz Ferdinand is on the tv and I'm not changing the channel. Now that's pretty bad. Hey Todd, you ever notice how I talk to you in my journal? I find that odd. I don't talk to anyone else in my journal. I was just realizing that, yeah, that's it. Wow, I type how I talk. ( Read more... )

I've got to learn to make myself not worry. I drive myself crazy.

So everyone keeps asking me what I want for my birthday... I never ( Read more... )

sooooo I feel like a shitty friend. I shopped, with my mom, for 5 and a half hours yesterday trying to find a stupid hand-me-down prom dress to wear to Meg's b-day party. I didn't find one and I didn't go. I wasn't gonna show up in regular clothes and look like an asshole. It's bad enough I get super anxiety around all her friends..... cuz I am ( Read more... )

you knoooooooooowwww........ I'm doing my best here to not come off like a clingy bitch, cuz I'm not........... but I miss my boyfriend. I guess it wouldn't be so bad if I could just like, not think about him for like 10 fucking minutes. It's quarter after 2 in the morning... I can't fucking sleep, I'm bored with the internet (only pervy boys on at ( Read more... )

This weekend has been awesome so far. I did the family thing on saturday and I was bored for the most part. My phone was ringing off the hook though which was strange. Todd called and he stopped by for a little bit. We went to Nate's house and smoked a blunt and I was RRRRRRREEEEEEEETARDED. I couldn't hold onto a thought for like 5 fucking seconds ( Read more... )