Tonight is fucking Halo of Locusts in Rochester and guess who isn't going? oh yeah it's me. I have enough money to go, get a shirt or cd and get into the show but I don't have enough money to get back. Maybe I should just go anyway. I can always stay with Perri and Joe till I get the money. hmm... that'd be difficult considering that my check has ( Read more... )

OH....... MY........GOD I just said the stupidest thing to Casey. He said, "may all your dreams come true" and what did I say? oh ho... I said, "my dreams already came true the day you rang my doorbell." How fucking GAY is that. I can't believe that I said it. I like the romance but I sure do feel funny for saying it. So let me rewind to last ( Read more... )

So this bird flu shit is scaring the hell out of me. Casey's mom came in this morning and started talking about all the bad shit she saw on tv and while she was talking it started to get to me so bad that I was crying. All I was thinking was "wow, my life could be cut short by a stupid flu and I just found someone that really makes me happy, I want ( Read more... )

I don't really know why I am here staring at this blank page. I don't have anything that I really want to say. I spent all of last weekend with Casey and I loved it. I think that I liked it so much that I'm in no rush to do it again. I don't want to become super attached. I'm already "needy." I don't wanna over do it.... but it was fun. We actually ( Read more... )

So I sent out 4 more resumes today and so I hope that something soon comes along. I need more money. I have a boyfriend now and boys are really really expensive. Oh wait... or is it that I just have a problem spending my money on them.... that could be it. I know that traditionally that the boy is supposed to spend all his money on his woman and I' ( Read more... )

I hate that I am just so god damn neurotic. I'm doing the shit that I always do. I'm overreacting and jumping the gun. I'm doing the little things that make a relationship tense. I told you that I do this. It's like my brain subconsciously tries to fuck it up. See how far I can go. I hate it. I feel like if I don't stop soon I'm gonna push him away ( Read more... )

I just drove home crying my brains out because I... am a jerk. I'm sleeping in Casey's bed and the phone rings. It woke me up. He left not only the room but the house to go talk on the phone. He went outside. I'm thinking to myself, "maybe he's just being considerate and smoking a cigarette." Then like 15 minutes pass by and I start thinking now, " ( Read more... )

my boyfriend is perfect. This weekend had its ups and downs. I am getting more comfortable with my boy every day so I'm starting to get a little carried away with saying some things. I'm really NOT trying to eb mean at all. I just joke around sometimes kinda shitty. That's always the one sure sign that I love you... when I go a little overboard. I ( Read more... )

xgigglecorexxx (1:12:26 AM): i just told casey that i can't hang out with him all that much anymore because i'm getting attatched and it makes coming home hard when what i really wanted to say was i love being around you so much that i don't wanna be away from you...............what is wrong with me ( Read more... )

So... it is October and the trees are changing colors. The air smells crisp and clean and the wind is quite chilly at times. I love the fall. I really do. I wanna go to Indian Ladder before it closes so bad. I don't think I'll be doing the trail though since it is a place that I would love to go with Casey and his thing with heights would just not ( Read more... )