Everyday that I get into my car I swear is going to be the day that it dies. Casey's car died tonight and now I'm sitting here thinking.... "when is mine gonna go?" That poor kid. He has the worst luck with that car. I tried to go and help but I didn't end up doing anything. As I got there so did the tow truck. Ugh. I agreed to go into work an hour ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning feeling like shit. I felt so bad that Casey said something to me, no idea what it was and I started to cry. I have a fever and my head hurts really bad. I tried to go back to sleep after he left for work and my fever must have broken because I could not stop sweating and I felt even worse. His mom came in and woke me up ( Read more... )

maybe I'll get over it... but since I can't predict the future I just don't know what will happen. I feel very deep down inside that I almost hate you a tiny bit. For lying to me. It was such a fierce blow. I just don't understand why. That tiny little part of me kicks me everyday since that night for not throwing your ring in your face and telling ( Read more... )

I just puked so fucking hard that I have red spots all over my face. I picked Casey because he made me feel so amazing I forgot that anyone else existed. He does webcam shows for other chicks. My boyfriend not only cheats on me but he cheats on me on the internet. I wanna die. I feel like such an idiot. I threw my heart out to him when I knew that ( Read more... )

I seriously just thought about this 5 minutes ago.... I'm really upset that you went to Vermont last saturday. That was something that we were supposed to do together. I know I've said at least 3 times that we were gonna do that and you went without me. Wow that really sucks and I feel left out now and I suppose you'll tell me now that you didn't ( Read more... )

I told David tonight that I can no longer talk to him. I screwed up and sent a duplicate message that was for Kimmy to david by accident. I called him and explained my fuck up. It killed me when the "message receipt" came through and it said that I sent it to him and what I said played for Casey to hear. I had just explained that I don't talk to ( Read more... )

christmas present right here 

I need to be needed. I need to feel important. I need it. You need it? I can so give it but I really need it too. Especially around this time of year. The season, the holiday's.... they kill my soul.

I feel like such a failure right now. I can't get a real job. I'm stuck. I have hit my seasonal speedbump in life. Due to the lack of professional references I am stuck applying at mall jobs and lame shit that I really didn't want to work. I could go back to BOA and make my $10.91 an hour but.... I'd have to wait till January and then what will I ( Read more... )

Sooooo.... Casey came over and spent the night with me last night. I loved it sooooooooo much. We stayed up till 5am just shootin' the shit. It was really nice. I got my hairs cut yesterday. I was scared that he wasn't going to like it and he does. That made me begin to like it. Since I fucking hated it. I really do have the perfect boyfriend. My ( Read more... )