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Word vomit always brings you back in some way shape or form
When ever I think back on this person it is never fondly and quit frankly I wish they would just go away. A part of me doesn't care what he does with my belongings. Those journals are probably things I don't want to remember. There are some things I want to say to this lying sick fuck. At first it was sorry but after what took place in June I feel ( Read more... ) -
2nd Place? No thanks again
Big day today nervous. Found of why a certain someone was in my journal and heard what they said to my twin, I just remind myself they aren't all there so it's whatever. Twin said he didn't know whether to laugh or smack her stupid ass. I would've shook my head and walked away. Special people ( Read more... ) -
Snip snip
Family and friends day was a bust of my own doing. Matt and I have always been on rocky ground so I guess this just pushed it over the edge. I spent friday there and immediately fall asleep. The combo of heat and beer put me out. We watched bad netflix movies and had dinner. I tried to make him more comfortable by moving his fan closer to him. I ( Read more... ) -
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My mother gets on my nerves. I found out some good news today. I heard back from Wine & Spirits. I have a interview with them on the 16th of july. If I get this job I told my mother that I wanted to move to Matt's place as soon as possible. She started in on the distance between my possible job and where Matt lives. I feel like she just doesn't ( Read more... ) -
I wish I were a bird so I can fly far far away
Well Flower heard back from U.s. Airways already so now I'm sweating bullets hoping to hear something as well. Her interview is on Pooh's bday in Charlotte N.C I wish her luck but I know I will be lime green jelly if she gets hired without me. Right now me=shit. I was so down that I actually walked around in my natural hair today. The horror the ( Read more... ) -
Welcome to the "Comfort Zone"
My last entry didn't go well. After some intense soul searching I have come to the realization that I am Sean's comfort zone. We are pretty much friends with benefits. Truth be told our entire two year relationship when I think back on it was us being "friends with benefits" :/ He tries to date other people, finds it hard to connect outside of ( Read more... ) -
Are you....sincere?
Last night and this afternoon or today I should say makes my head and heart hurt. Sean came by yesterday. It was funny because at first I felt like he didn't want to but then I realized he wasn't sure if he could. Our back and forth text messages could be considered "sweet". After I made it clear that he could come over since I would be home alone ( Read more... ) -
You make me sick
My nightmares keep growing. He-who-shall-not-be-named decided to turn my kindness into a death sentence. He gave me another health scare. I have to consult my paper dairy to double check something but so far my health status hasn't changed. I will forever be living in fear about my health. That disease can take years to surface. Every three months ( Read more... ) -
Still playing kids games
I' ve talked it into the ground. By that I mean what took place at Drac's Ball. Despite the fact that Sean considers himself an "evolved" human being he is still struck deaf, dumb and blind on the subject of being honest with me. If you are interested in someone and we supposedly have a relationship as friends that we (at least me because I have ( Read more... ) -
I'm still as lost now as I was then
Yesterday almost killed me. Since nana is not here Twin and I began the process of ripping up that disgusting carpet of hers. All the things that lie beneath it are still making me itch even after soaking and scrubbing in the tub to feel human again. Right now there are no real problems with her not being here. The place is a little off of nana's ( Read more... )