love is a really stupid thing that doesn't make any sense. i don't really believe in the term 'oh i love you kiss kiss kisss' like fucking couples... i think it's lame at this age and obsessive. i was in a relationship like that once and i loved it sometimes but mostly i hated it because i felt weak and suffocated like i was losing who i was. ( Read more... )

here's the problem
silence is murderous
the sun sets on the beauty of a fade
i'm squelching myself into a container
i can hold
i can't hold on
to anything
slip off and slide down in the rain
i can't hold
to anything

i feel like my head just fucking exploded.

good old lj comes in handy again. it's insane how detached people are from each other's lives, when they sit down to write their personal thoughts and feelings, as opposed to when they skim through their friend's entries for interesting content ( Read more... )

everytime i think about it i start to feel angry. why!? that is just wrong. of course i can do my lj dance of obnoxious obscurity, where i use pronouns and confusing phrases so that only i know what i'm talking about. but that's the way it should be, right? well, truth be, i am a dirty rotten scoundrel. and i read something freakishly ( Read more... )

this is what goes on in my head sometimes. i think it's fairly upsetting that the thought reel plays so naturally inside me. i've wasted so much time today. i don't know why or what i was ranting about to people or why my eyebrows kept doing that thing they do on my forehead so often. i wasn't even thinking about it. uuuhhh i wonder if that ( Read more... )

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people had really good entries these past few days. i admit i don't always read people's journals but some people wrote some interesting stuff, at least in my opinion. my body definitely does not feel good. too much smoke and gross intake of everything bad for me but i had it anyway because i suffer from idiocy. last night i watched so many ( Read more... )

O MY GOD.... it was the most godawful experience ever. linnea and i went to walmart at two in the morning to buy the new harry potter book (linnea hates harry potter but screw her) on a whim and this guy was like 'heeeeyyy' and we just kept walking and smiling and being polite but ultimately trying to get away. so then he follows us to our car in ( Read more... )

here are some more pictures i just didn't think to post last night.  some people might love em (kaaaate, need your shot? lol xo) and others will probably hate em.  hey, any publicity is good publicity, right? i just wish i took some better pictures.  well, the camera quality wasn't great either.

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