Things have been quite difficult lately, but that goes with out saying. Everyone has turmoil I guess but when you live with mental illness it is a constant battle. I'm not just talking about thoughts of suicide or depression, I mean everything ( Read more... )

I'm so tired of being ignored. I just want either of you to remember that I exist. Why is it so damn hard for you to call me? Do I have the plegue or something? I hate flakey men. Why do you have to be so smart yet so dumb? I wish I was next to you right now so I could slap you silly.

First off let me say that some of what I am about to say comes with a MASSIVE TRIGGER WARNING ( Read more... )

I have just learn a couple of things; 1)almost every resource I could dig up for seeking treatment for depression is either closed because it is Saturday or disconnected completely. 2) when I hear every single recording that says "if this is an emergency, please hang up and dial 911" I think to myself "This isn't an emergency" sure I'm in a reallu ( Read more... )

I remember the first time we met. I remember being inside you for the first time. I remember moving along with the rhythm of your voice. Hard and fast, slow and melodic. I was enthralled by your mystery. I recall being so open. I know I was young and foolish then thinking that our love would last forever. You broke my heart. I know you are someone ( Read more... )

I have linked my LJ to my Facebook. I don't know if this is a good idea or not.

It's really nice being able to see things clearly again. It's as if the world around me was a giant blur and it is just now coming back into focus. I know things are still pretty messy and most of this shit still needs to be sorted out. I know that I still have to wait for his reply and see if he's going to tear my heart out. But for now I'm back ( Read more... )

So you have finally read the message that I sent you days ago. You sent me a message to tell me that you are going to respond only after you've had time to mill it over and that you'll get back to me. Really? You message me to tell me that you are going to torment me further after I tell you that that very behavior makes me fucking crazy. ( Read more... )

First of all I'd like to say that this message is very difficult for me to write. There is a huge part of me that doesn't want to bother you and there is the rest that knows that this is necessary ( Read more... )

I still can't help but feel that I am being jerked around.