It has beensome time since I have put anything in this journal of mine. So much has happend but what can I say as time passes I care less and less about the things that I used to. It's almost like she is slowly helping me to become someone else. How do you describe how someone makes you feel when all that is left in this world is maddness? Innocent ( Read more... )

So it's just another spectaculaaaarrrrrr day Tonight I be gettin a back rub damm right. sounds like SL is on a role yo!! but back to the topic at hand so Trisha was all like watcha doin on tuesday? and I was like nothin really why? I was thinking of staying the night? yeah sounds like fun I will get some people over and party?? No I was thinking ( Read more... )

Does anyone else ever feel like there being used in every situation. That is how I have felt latly. Almost like if I wasn't who I was the same people wouldn't be around me.. In reflection of this new thought, I have decided to go on a vacation. Not telling where I am going seems to be the way I usually handel things so this time will be no ( Read more... )

So everything is going perfect. I have to eat dinner with my whole family so that should be fun. ML is home now and everything finaly feels as it should. I haven't been sleeping well though.. My dreams keep taking me away from whats happening so I guess I have been hiding from them. X-mas is going to be the day I thought that less people would ( Read more... )

I am still waiting love when re u coming home? have you not made me wait long enough? a yes back from you would be nice.. I remember what you said so now that you have my attentioneh what are you going to do with it. I miss you being here and making me laugh. My smile is hurting as well ( Read more... )

I have been thinking a lot and after I got the call I came to what I feel is the best thing for me ( Read more... )

Oh my god last weekend was so much fun ( Read more... )

Halloween was fun I had a blast those of you that didn't make it sorry you missed out ( Read more... )

I am getting better as my fav. holiday draws closer. It should be fun. Fun is something that needs to happen to me with the way things have been going. I have saved up a fare amount of money for this day so in theory it should be an all expenseseses payeeeeeed trip to chris's fun. The idea is to start it of with a count down to Halloween with drink ( Read more... )

Not really that much to say today. Still I feel bad. I guess time heals everything? No it can't if it di then what do you say to the people with cancer????? This is straight up gay I am so very tired of doing nothing. Today we will do something new god please something new I am going crazy. HELLO can you hear me internal dying hapnin here. ( Read more... )