i am stuck in this cycle where i get drunk and make a mistake.
then in my inability to handle the situation i get drunk.
and make another mistake.
it seems logical to stop drinking.
but then how would i distract myself from the situations i have already created?
this isnt as easy as it sounds, or the seemingly obvious answer that arise.

The things that make me great are the same things that make me horrible.

So life has been pretty good lately I must say. The end of school is creeping up on me but I'm so excited to be done with school. Once school is over I am moving back to my beloved 303. It will officially be summer which is going to be awesome, my plan: go to europe, work alot, get drunk even more. On the topic of getting drunk, it seems to me ( Read more... )

Youd be amazed if you knew how happy i am right now. seriously i got all sad and then 8 hours later, it all turned around. Instead of actually telling you anything important here is this ( Read more... )

i had one of the most amazing weekends ever ( Read more... )

this is my life ( Read more... )

I'm hanging out in boulder right now. Updating from my moms laptop. + = a good thing, - = a not good thing ( Read more... )

not a whole lot is new. i went to a party on friday for kate's roommate emily's birthday party. it was a good party. the second i walked in i had to leave to go buy a keg, haha, not one person there was 21 for a long while. emily got really drunk, but seeing as it was her birthday it was all good, she was having a good time. i met some new ( Read more... )

Before you click the link just know that there is alot of personal stuff in there. These are basically poems if that is what you want to call them. Some of them contain subjects and contexts that could be offensive or hurtful, to others and me. I feel like I hide too much from the world, and maybe if I start to let some things out, that I will ( Read more... )

Have you ever noticed how sometimes the smallest things make the difference? How giving someone a compliment or a smile can turn someones day around? I like to think about the things that people do that make me happy, the things that change my day/week, and then try and do those things for other people. Most of the time with me it is just ( Read more... )