i never got that "phrase balls to the wall" and its been bugging me all day is it liek u put ur balls on a wall or u stick them to a wall or staple i dono but its bugging the shit out of me. anyways this is my first little entry in a long time and since i got back from my snowy hell up in the mountains. oh well im bored and i dont wanna go to ( Read more... )

so life seems boring and pointless haha the normal writings for an online journal but this time it actually applies lifes boring my relationship was boring the both of us so thats over. my dads being a dick again with his girlfriend now "fiance" after like 5 months of dating. well at least i get to be single again :-D hmm everyone says they like my ( Read more... )

Flaw-"payback"

You suck!
Watch me fall while I go down
I'm taking all you bastards to the ground with
me then I'll frown
On your fucking whole life
The systematic hype still means a bit much to me

Danzig-"mother"

Mother
Tell your children not to walk my way
Tell your children not to hear my words
What they mean
What they say
Mother

Mother
Can you keep them in ( Read more... )

well my mom wants me to go back and see amy (rehab counsler) in january when my insurence is renewed and she wants me to counsle with her it pisses me off she expects me to talk to that bitch after she told my parents all those fucking lies she did the same thing to her last damn client sept it wont ruin her life as much cuz shes almost 18 im stuck ( Read more... )

oh yea i forgot my parents are threatning to send me to military school and boot camp and impatient even though i have more thn 30 days clean

so my parents took away every form of contact to the outside world from me except for school they search my room and very theroly i might add what did they find? ABSOLUTLY NOTHING HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA fuckers i told them i dont do drugs its not that i have a good hiding spot its that i dont own any drugs at all except my RX drugs fuck them i feel ( Read more... )

ressurect the fallen and send them back

raise their hopes but shoot them down

with your machines of power and your weapons of war

manipulating the masses, making them turn against one

burn his soul with your lies

run him into the ground send him hiding

on the back step

lifes not fair

its not fair, its not fair

ive reach my end and

i dont even care
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ok its been along time but fuck, i need to get some shit out. ive lost alot of shit over the last year friends trust money family etc alot of those things i cant gain back and if i can it will take a while. i started out patient rehab treatment at the end of july i smoke weed july 3rd that was the last time i smoked fuck its been forever oh well it ( Read more... )

wow this morning my mom lost my grandmas dog that was at 5 this morning its now 330 and im passing out flyers to find him. my grandmas crying. my moms yelling at me and adding on to my grounding cause shes in a bad mood. we finally find a person whos seen him a runner. she saw him at 530 AM and we found her at 830 thats like 15 hours ago. well ( Read more... )

save me from ( Read more... )