weirdo. i have no academic commitments until i have to show up the first day of college. this feels freeing, but in a way similar to my parents yelling "Fine!! Just go then! See what happens!!!" my feeling are of course, as always, of great numbness, to the point where i yearn for melancholy. i can only appreciate what is going on around me ( Read more... )

wow theres only one thing ruining my beautiful weekends at this point...

fecking Final Projects in Every friiicking Class

feckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

this summer has to be special. we all know this is the last one of the first era of our lives. next year we will come back, and hug each other, and remember how close we used to be what we used to be like, but then we'll go home to our old rooms that smell the same but look different and go to our summer jobs all the time and go back to college ( Read more... )

the coffee machine perculating  when i get home after school reminds me of a soothing waterfall...of delicious caffeine.
i love not having so many after school commitments...like homework. which ive been postponing for about 5 months.

pride has gotten in the way of many things that could have been great, but its also stopped a lot of catastrophes.  ( Read more... )

i feel like squeezing a liberal amount of spring into my palm, working it into a lather, and rinsing ( Read more... )

typety type type type ( Read more... )

i took friday off but now i dont have anyone to share it with. :-/

thats ok though...i cant trust other people to make me happy.  ill just have to fall back on my gooooooood lookssssss


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weather is the main factor of whatever mood im in.

so ive been up and down lately.

ive never been so torn in my life.

i want to know where my boundaries are.

and id like to be able to set some myself without the risk of losing anything.

trust me, these arent just phrases strung together and dead metaphors.

but overall, i need to gain some respect ( Read more... )

after school
the real test to who we all are
im eating refried beans
(becuase,and) i dont know what anyone else is doing

as a seasoned 2 day veteran on the work force, i now feel qualified to say that i dont like work.  i knew i wouldnt like work before i ever started, but i dont mind the "keeping busy" part or the uniform or my boss.  its the complete loss of time thats getting to me. i would never have gotten a job if i didnt need MORE that $10 a week for gas.  my ( Read more... )