i allowed myself to really explore my anger for the first time in a while ( Read more... )

my friend turned 28 yesterday ( Read more... )

adam took me to the new england aquarium today. it was perfect. really fantastic. i could spend hours upon hours watching the giant ocean tank and hte penguins. the jelly fish were beautiful and i got some neat pictures. the sharks gave me goose bumps. im still not sure how i feel about them. im not scared of them really, but they make me ( Read more... )

i cant stop crying.

i feel stupid.
this isnt how i want to deal with any of this.

so dont talk to him, right?
its that easy.
just dont.
gahhhhh.
type type type
delete delete delete

adam, aquarium this weekend? ill call you tomorrow.

its been weird trying to sort this out. im not sure why im so hurt or bothered by it. at first it just hurt. the rejection stung and i felt unattractive and undesirable. but weighing that against the last few weeks, thats pretty much all i had been feeling when i thought about him or the situation we were in any way. as i started to pick it ( Read more... )

actually...

i love my new job.

positives.

apparently ( Read more... )

"i cant tell you anything ( Read more... )

seadflo (11:55:28 AM): I just really believe your in love with sabotaging yourself.

yup.
the truth is out, folks.