Once upon a time I could post something on here, and know for a fact that someone would read it. I've fallen out of touch with that. I've mistreated people into not giving a damn about me (Matt) and lost a really good friend because of it. I pushed a relationship past it's limits with someone (Dara) and lost a really good friend because of it. I ( Read more... )

Hi all, just an update on what's going on with me. I've lost phone numbers and what not, this and email are the only two real options I have for getting a hold of people. I'll be leaving for Germany in July. The baby is due in September. I reenlisted and won't be getting out of the army until 2012. That is all I think.

Seriously. I know it's quite likely that no one will read this. But there is still a chance so I figure, why the fuck not ( Read more... )

Honestly, it has been quite a while since I've had a real update. By the way, Dara, I might actually have a chance at an ivy league diploma. I will explain further on down ( Read more... )

so this past whole month is kind of a blur for me. I've slept way more than I should have, and I've beaten more video games in a month than in my life. I guess as a sort of defense mechanism I've chosen to fly through with as little effort as possible. That's why not a lot of people have heard from me. I also have no internet in my room ( Read more... )

I

Hate

This.

I never used to be this way. Dates never had this much significance. I knew when the worst day of my life was, but it ever bothered me this much. I guess the more I go through the less I let go. Therefore it becomes harder and harder to make it through the day ( Read more... )

I've had a significant loss in appetite. My interest in most things is disappearing. My sleeping pattern has become irradic; I sleep too much at odd hours, and this will reflect at work I'm sure. My outlook on life is progressively becoming more pessimistic than normal, and I can't stop thinking. When I get like this, thinking is the worst thing I ( Read more... )

Don't know what's going on ( Read more... )

Two decades, and it's a shame, but as I step into the future I'm looking back on my past. But it's not really surprising is it? It seems like I can only focus on the negative things in my life, and I really have no interest in living the next twenty years the same way. So the next girlfriend I have, if ever I have one again, is going to be treated ( Read more... )