ok so anyways, i relly hate life right now, i just want to fucking die.. im so sick of everthing, its like im just a worthless peice of crap, and tahts it, just used and loosed and stepped on by everyone and everything, idk what to do anymore , itslike, i really just dont know what to do at all, im so tired right now, god, i feel like im getting in ( Read more... )

man what a horrible night, i had like a series of panick attacks that would not go away, meh, ill write more later

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ok well, lets see, yesterday i went to ballet and we did the normal blood pressure stuff and so forth, there are so many skinny girls in that class this year! it sucks! now im realy going to look huge, i totally have to drop 40 pounds and fast........ then i went to earth science and i have this crazy smart masters in geology and earth sciences ( Read more... )

well, today was the first day of school, it was ok, but i had like no sleep last night so i was super tired all day. well, the cute hobbit boy that was in my math class last year is in it again this year,but i dont think he likes me very much, haha, oh well, i dont care, meh, i have a 4 hour brake between classes on mondays and wednesdays so i ( Read more... )

wow, life sucks, im invisible, forgotten, or so ive come to figure and notice, that, i think, if i didnt call anyone for a week, i wouldnt speak to a soul outside of my family, that made me realize, that i must be a forgotten... just alone, just, un thought of or unwanted in anyway, i wonder, does anyone think of me? cause i sure think of a lot of ( Read more... )

hmm, ok so today i woke up at like 4 and then helped my mom with some chores, then i walked/ ran, my 3 miles, with sabrina and stretched a whole lot, then i went and saw the darkness with my firend chris, the movie was good untill the end, then it was just horrible, the ending was so bad, like, it doesnt explain anything or like what happens or ( Read more... )

ok well, this is werid, .......... i ll start with the beginning of the day, ......... first , i picked up christie, my friend from NY that i only hang out with once a year, and we went and saw the aviator, it was really good, but, freaking long........ then we went to jims and ate, it was cool, but i started getting all panicattacky and weird, ( Read more... )

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