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The times are a changing
So I sit here at Starbucks, drinking a white chocolate mocha frappucino, doing research for my job, which is nothing by the way. I had brought my Wacom to do some sketching while I was here and I forgot to charge it. FAIL. sucks to be me. SO i decided to journal after a few years. Life sure has changed for me, Moved to Knoxville Tennessee ( Read more... ) -
I think karma is confused...
Sigh. Why is it that good things keep happening to bad people?? Why is it that for everything i do, or whatever comes at me, is a battle or a struggle? I am not ungrateful for how I have become, or what I have gone through. It just seems that people who never struggle and aren't good to others, never have to fight for anything, it just falls in ( Read more... ) -
wtf!
I don't know what I did to deserve this, but its not right. It's not fair. It won't happen again. -
in the eye of the storm
Once again, I sit here confused, damaged, hurt, and not knowing how to fix it. I don't know what I do, that people don't talk to me. I can't say everyone cause there are a few, a very few who sometimes message me. I know people have lives and such, but most people arent that busy all the time. I don't know. I feel very alone lately. I don't ( Read more... ) -
tired.....
Getting real tired of being second best anymore, maybe the changes i need to make are right in front of my face....guess I shall see -
And the wheels suddenly stop....
Well i am sitting here listening to some Crossfade thinkin of what to write since so much is jumbled in my head. Where to start ( Read more... ) -
thanks fucking giving
Well here it is, one year since my mom has passed away and i dont feel like doing anything. I guess if i took my medicine it wouldnt be as bad as it is, but then again i dont think i would feel anything. I dont feel like working anymore. I just want to disappear. It is really sad that I feel that way. I am not happy in my relationship, ( Read more... ) -
Endless time.
I dont even know where to begin. I dont understand what is so horrible i did in my life to deserve all the problems that are getting thrown at me. I do things to help people, to be there for people when they need a shoulder. Almost complete strangers, hardly ever talked to them, and im making sure they are ok cause one of my dumbass friends/ ( Read more... ) -
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"what day is it, and what month, this clock never seemed so alive"
This is beginning to get bad. I thought all would be well with me driving down to see my daughter and it was, im very thankful i have gotten to spend time with her. But the turmoil in my mind and my soul is causing a huge rift inside, a totally empty and devoid place of no feeling. ( Read more... )