I'm confused

[soulmaking]

I wanted to be a girl for a long time. I never did much besides cross-dress. I was always too scared. Two years before this year I started manipulating my penis to make it bigger when in fact I damaged it. Because of this I no longer want to transition and I've been scared even more so because now my penis won't ever function. Stem cells are so far

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Firstly- absent a trustable medical consult few things are truly sure..

[capybyra]

Not trying to give medical advice and in fact I freely state the opposite. Have you seen a specialist? And have you got a person-not needfully a credentialed psych either- who you have a trust relationship to talk every aspect over with them? Sometimes we may "know" all our options and which ones to use which ways. External validation is to me at least- a calming certainty assist:> Sadly I concede my not being even remotely suited to do the deep searching you deserve. I do hope you either have or get someone in your life who can be a life coach about things. Hell- there's many times *I* wish I had one a bit closer to me:>

Re: Firstly- absent a trustable medical consult few things are truly sure..

[soulmaking]

I have talked to doctors if that's what you mean because to be honest I'm kinda confused about what you mean. Now if you mean have I told people then yes only those closest to me which would be my sister. My mom has told me to be strong but yeah. My sister knows it's effecting me, they both know no matter what advice in life they give me I won't be able to follow through because in this case my problem isn't just mental like it used to be. It used to all be insignificant nothing medical. It was all just stuff having to do with regrets and what not. This is it somewhat too but on a larger scale and I would say in this case I would be more happier if I can get back to normal but speaking with medical doctors it isn't an easy task and actually could make it worst under the knife and scarring is not exactly able to be broken down as of so far.