I am reading a book by joyce carol oates, and she refers to one of her characters as a christian, but the kind that sees jesus as overseer of Hell. Its sad, that many christians see it as this ( Read more... )

Its always the little things that get me. Coming across the notes he still has from her in his bed side table, her name on the mail from waste managment, thinking about her decorating the house, coming across a picture of her with that pretty lil diamond on her left finger ( Read more... )

Last night I was wearing a heart necklace, before bed I put it next to the bed on the ground ( Read more... )

gah.. i always want what I cant have. and when I have it.. it suddenly becomes exactly what I hate. I am scared of commitment, is that my problem ( Read more... )

Tonight I came out to sc and hang out with kayla, fiona, sarah and grace (my sc girlies). When I got here kayla and grace were taking shots and they asked me to dd. I agreed, because I have never been dd out here, and I am trying to be more responsible with my drinking and stuff. We all got ready and headed out to the lost/jungle party ( Read more... )

So I was talking to andrie last night and I realized that we always have such good conversation and a good time together. I began to wonder why we broke up in the first place, I knew it was my doing.. But I still don't know why. Nerves? Broken heart? Scared to be treated good? Who knows.. I am still not ready to try it again, not because I want to ( Read more... )

I am laying in bed right now, completely unmotivated to go to accounting. I can't wait until I get to wake up next to someone I love everyday. I like waking up next to someone, it makes me motivated to get up and get at em. Lol. I have been thinking about marriage a lot lately, which is probably bad since I am moving far away.. But anyways, even ( Read more... )

Oh man.. Well.. I got into franklin! I leave from nyc on august 20. I have about 7 months to get ready, but I wanna start now! Lol. I am already thinking about my going away party sometime in the beginning of august and all the packing. I started applying for scholarships and doing that stuff this week too! Ahhh! Its crazy to think of everyone im ( Read more... )

Saying this may sound funny.. but I need to slow down. Many of you are probably laughing right now, because you know that I have been doing not alot.. besides sleeping these past few weeks. This is true. But that is not what I am talking about. I feel like I have lost a little but of who I am in these past few years. I used to enjoy the simple ( Read more... )

So last week I got a very unexpected phone call. It was from Tim. I am not sure if I have wrote about him in here before.. but he was my first.. everything, but mostly my first love. Anways, I have been waiting for this call from him for over... 2 years I think. I went to his house that night with a few of my girl friends and hung out. It was ( Read more... )