Camp Synopsis: Days 5 - 7
So I went around to pretty much all of the cabins in camp, plus any place else that it looked like people might sleep. After meeting a bunch of people who didn't have anywhere to stay yet, I wanted to make sure everyone who showed up would be able to get a bed to sleep in. I know Guy thinks I'm being silly, probably because we spend so much time sleeping on the ground, but most people aren't like us. Anyway, I guess I just like having something to focus on...
Anyway, I made a list of all of the places with spare beds. Right now it looks like this:
Girls 2 (1)
Girls 12 (3)
Boys 1 (1)
Boys 11 (1)
Boys 14 (1)
Boys 19 (4)
Namine's House (3)
Some of those have probably been filled up by now, since I tried to help a few people get rooms. I hope, anyway. Actually, no one really acted like they wanted to share with more people, even if it meant they'd be helping them. I guess I understand that, I'm used to having my own room and everything, and the cabins here cram six people into one little building. But they can't really expect people to sleep outside just because of that, right?
The people who were willing to give up their extra beds all said they wanted to meet them first. I understand that too, though it's still not really the kind of situation where people can be so picky. But maybe in a place like this it's necessary? I was talking to Gokudera about it, and it seems like no one here is really what I'd consider normal. Even if they look normal I just find out later that they carry bombs around, or eat people or have some weird sickness that keeps them from being around others. How come no one here is just a farmer? Or a mother or a shop owner? Maybe I'm just not talking to the right people.
And speaking of weird, Heat is the guy that eats people. I thought he was kidding at first, but he sure looked at me like I was dinner. He didn't attack me or anything though and once I talked to him... I don't know. He says he likes eating people, even though he wasn't always that way. I can't agree with that at all. But if he really has to kill people and eat them to live, I don't feel like I can judge him either. Even if he enjoys it, it doesn't change the fact that he's still has to kill to live. And I'm not any different from that. I made my choice, that if I had to kill or be killed then I'd be the one killling. And after Akzeriuth... that didn't change. Eating people is pretty disgusting, of course. But if I needed to do that to survive, wouldn't I? I don't know. I want to say no but... I know how much I don't want to die now. I can't say I'd give up my life that simply any more.
I met another weird girl who thought like Kazumi did. She spent a while saying I was 'gay' before I found out that means the same thing as 'sly' and I told her I wasn't. Why does everyone keep thinking that? Just because I said I didn't need a bunch of sexy girls. One would be fine. She kept hanging all over me too, even though she says she has a boyfriend. She reminded me a lot of Anise, especially in the chest. Only Anise is just a kid, and I think this girl was older than me. Bad luck for her, I guess.
Speaking of Anise, I talked to her, along with Guy and Emperor Peony. Emperor Peony wanted me to wear the outfit he made us before the final battle, but it itches too much and I feel weird in it. I can't tell him that, obviously, but what's the matter with liking the clothes I have already?
Anyway, I talked with Namine too, and she told me something about what she is. Something called a Nobody which is kind of like a ghost, only the ghost is different from the person who died? It sounds really familiar. She also told me where I could meet her friend. He's a replica too. We didn't really talk much, I wanted to but I guess I didn't really know what to say. Namine told me about how he and his original fight all the time, and his original has killed him twice. It reminded me too much of me and Asch.
I wish I could say I don't understand, but when the Replica (that's what they call him, he hasn't decided on a name, I guess) said that he hates his original because it meant nothing was his, and that he couldn't be himself, I understood at least a little bit. He actually sounds a lot like Asch, since Asch always hated me for being used to replace him. But I know what it's like to feel like you aren't yourself, because there's someone else who is you. And hearing him say that made me wonder if I really could help him at all. After all, it's not like anyone was able to help me with Asch. It's just something we had to settle ourselves, even Natalia couldn't get through to him. And no matter how much people told me that being a replica didn't make me less of a human, I couldn’t believe that until I figured it out for myself.
But I still think they're lucky. These two have a chance to work things out between them. There's no reason for replicas and their originals to fight. And now they're here and they might be able to understand each other, but from what I've been hearing neither of them wants it?
...man, it's really depressing to think about.
I wonder if there's ever a chance that Asch could come here...?
But even if he did he'd probably just yell at me and call me 'stupid replica' again.
Anyway, I made a list of all of the places with spare beds. Right now it looks like this:
Girls 2 (1)
Girls 12 (3)
Boys 1 (1)
Boys 11 (1)
Boys 14 (1)
Boys 19 (4)
Namine's House (3)
Some of those have probably been filled up by now, since I tried to help a few people get rooms. I hope, anyway. Actually, no one really acted like they wanted to share with more people, even if it meant they'd be helping them. I guess I understand that, I'm used to having my own room and everything, and the cabins here cram six people into one little building. But they can't really expect people to sleep outside just because of that, right?
The people who were willing to give up their extra beds all said they wanted to meet them first. I understand that too, though it's still not really the kind of situation where people can be so picky. But maybe in a place like this it's necessary? I was talking to Gokudera about it, and it seems like no one here is really what I'd consider normal. Even if they look normal I just find out later that they carry bombs around, or eat people or have some weird sickness that keeps them from being around others. How come no one here is just a farmer? Or a mother or a shop owner? Maybe I'm just not talking to the right people.
And speaking of weird, Heat is the guy that eats people. I thought he was kidding at first, but he sure looked at me like I was dinner. He didn't attack me or anything though and once I talked to him... I don't know. He says he likes eating people, even though he wasn't always that way. I can't agree with that at all. But if he really has to kill people and eat them to live, I don't feel like I can judge him either. Even if he enjoys it, it doesn't change the fact that he's still has to kill to live. And I'm not any different from that. I made my choice, that if I had to kill or be killed then I'd be the one killling. And after Akzeriuth... that didn't change. Eating people is pretty disgusting, of course. But if I needed to do that to survive, wouldn't I? I don't know. I want to say no but... I know how much I don't want to die now. I can't say I'd give up my life that simply any more.
I met another weird girl who thought like Kazumi did. She spent a while saying I was 'gay' before I found out that means the same thing as 'sly' and I told her I wasn't. Why does everyone keep thinking that? Just because I said I didn't need a bunch of sexy girls. One would be fine. She kept hanging all over me too, even though she says she has a boyfriend. She reminded me a lot of Anise, especially in the chest. Only Anise is just a kid, and I think this girl was older than me. Bad luck for her, I guess.
Speaking of Anise, I talked to her, along with Guy and Emperor Peony. Emperor Peony wanted me to wear the outfit he made us before the final battle, but it itches too much and I feel weird in it. I can't tell him that, obviously, but what's the matter with liking the clothes I have already?
Anyway, I talked with Namine too, and she told me something about what she is. Something called a Nobody which is kind of like a ghost, only the ghost is different from the person who died? It sounds really familiar. She also told me where I could meet her friend. He's a replica too. We didn't really talk much, I wanted to but I guess I didn't really know what to say. Namine told me about how he and his original fight all the time, and his original has killed him twice. It reminded me too much of me and Asch.
I wish I could say I don't understand, but when the Replica (that's what they call him, he hasn't decided on a name, I guess) said that he hates his original because it meant nothing was his, and that he couldn't be himself, I understood at least a little bit. He actually sounds a lot like Asch, since Asch always hated me for being used to replace him. But I know what it's like to feel like you aren't yourself, because there's someone else who is you. And hearing him say that made me wonder if I really could help him at all. After all, it's not like anyone was able to help me with Asch. It's just something we had to settle ourselves, even Natalia couldn't get through to him. And no matter how much people told me that being a replica didn't make me less of a human, I couldn’t believe that until I figured it out for myself.
But I still think they're lucky. These two have a chance to work things out between them. There's no reason for replicas and their originals to fight. And now they're here and they might be able to understand each other, but from what I've been hearing neither of them wants it?
...man, it's really depressing to think about.
I wonder if there's ever a chance that Asch could come here...?
But even if he did he'd probably just yell at me and call me 'stupid replica' again.