So it's the end of my 1st week at San Diego and I've come to realize something - I've never felt more alone than anything. I feel entirely isolated mentally, physically, and emotionally. Sometimes it feels like I'm swimming in fathoms of the ocean alone... trying to conquer every wave that hits me. It's not that I don't find the company of my ( Read more... )

 So, I'm finally here in San Diego! It's nothing really new though as I have already been here so many times before to visit my sister. I'm at her apartment now and it feels so comfy sitting on her bed by the open window. The breeze is just rolling in and I feel very relaxed. I seriously can't wait til Monday, which is when my summer school starts ( Read more... )

So first off, I want to say that the "Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince" movie was amazing! I saw it at the midnight showing on the first day dressed in Slytherin robes that my friend let me borrow (even though I wanted to support Gryffindor). Anyways, although the movie could've been improved by inputting more of the important details from ( Read more... )

You know that saying "home is where the heart is"? Well... Walnut has just not been that way for me and it's been like this for a pretty long time. I'm sorry to say but I can't stand this small city anymore! It's not that I despise everything here but there are just those people in town that you just wonder why they're even around. I mean... it's ( Read more... )

 I kind of just want to run my heart out right now and strip away all the negativities that have burdened me these past 19 years. 

It's hard not to say anything and keeping it inside as it swells into a bigger problem. However, it's also hard to say it straight out without cringing or hesitating with fear. Basically, I am just in this toss between telling him how I truly feel or leaving it be - quiet and distant. Is this how first relationships are suppose to happen? 1 month ( Read more... )

It's summer and I've finally gotten better since that ordeal I had with my grades. So to sum things up that have happened lately:
- went to UCSD with my sister to get enrolled into the BILD 1 class for 2nd session. The teacher emailed me back last week saying that I got in!
- visited my Uncle whom has never met me or my sister at all since we were ( Read more... )

Things won't be the same anymore.
I am already fleeing...somewhere far.
I don't know what to say or do or how to think things through.
Wherever I go
and whatever I do
Failure comes and greets me.

I guess in the long run, sometimes things just take a twist at the end but for the good. 
I have never felt such feelings before...it's as if I floated off  the earth into a territory unknown but only to me. It's like I've seen it but never actually felt it. I dunno... it's a start :)

 So this is my 1st time being at UCR all alone on a weekend...great huh? It's 6:21 PM and I'm beyond bored! What to do...I could either study and read (like I really want to -_-) or go see some friends next door...but not gonna lie, that would be a bit awkward for me? Idk. UGHHH! Seriously, I don't know how my other friend can live through not ( Read more... )