so its another lonely night in the head shop. . . stuck here again only to get off of work too late to call certain people i know. . . life really sucks sometimes. . . hopefully i'll be getting off somewhat early. . . or at least early compared to my normal schedule. . . gonna go shoot some pool tonight. . . hopefully i'll be shooting some good ( Read more... )

meow

i found i only get nervous around the girls that i really do like. . . blah im gonna end this entry right here i think in order to stop my self from getting all sappy. . . more thinking is needed ciao ciao

so a couple of days ago i got drunk with freddy at the pool hall as usual. . . on my way home i text messaged someone. . . well, i texted lana. . . simple, short, straight to the point--i'm sick of all this shit, i want to see you-- she didnt reply and frankly i half forgot i did it till the next day when she called me. . . i was kind of upset ( Read more... )

still alive. . . woohoo. . . still wanting a certain girl. . . getting softer with each passing minute. . . what the hell am i to do. . . she prolly wont call tonight. . . oh well. . . maybe she will. . . damn these stupid games. . . i could easily get laid by a couple of different girls, only problem is i only want that one. . . i hope both of our ( Read more... )

so the girls that i really want to spend some time with i can't. . . partly cause they're busy, partly because i'm busy. . . i want to see lana and just hang out, it would be nice if something more happened between us, i want to see lindin cause i miss her so much. . . i'm a fuckin idiot, she was right there and i did nothing, now that she's gone i ( Read more... )

so i got one sweating cause everytime she wants to hang out i've already got plans. . . she seems very adamant about me going over to see her, feels kinda cool. . . saw another one last night, her very protective friend wisked her away b4 anything could actually happen, that sucked. . . got another date for later tonight, maybe i can squeeze in ( Read more... )

so i now have a place to call home again. . . woohoo. . . still playing hard to get. . . everything starting to level out again. . . met another girl, chinese, very attractive, somewhat submissive, and she's into me. . . shit gotta go

i can't shake this feeling that something very bad is going to happen. . . it's been getting worse and worse as the day slowly went on. . . very bad feeling. . . i need a break. . . i know i've been saying it a lot but i need to get out of here. . . bad. . . i have no one to turn to right now, and i don't have the mental capacity to make it on my ( Read more... )

so what's new. . . hmmm. . . got evicted from my run down apartment. . . i guess it was a blessing. . . met a very nice female. . . nothing's really coming from that. . . my friends get to spend more time with the girl than i do. . . kinda sucks, but oh well, what can you do right. . . haven't talked to mo lately. . . sucks. . . we've been playing ( Read more... )