FUCK all this FUCKIN' BULLSHIT GODDAMN MOTHERFUCKERS can just eat SHIT and DIE

i now hate the world again. . . still no money. . . one of my best friends is leaving town tonight and i havent had a chance to spend any time with her because my wonderful partner couldn't find it in his little shriveled heart to give me some time off to say my goodbyes. . . the girl i'm seeing right now still hasn't been able to get me off lately ( Read more... )

mmmkay. . . so i think i just got myself into another relationship. . . oh well, time for another rollercoaster ride. . . i'll try to treat this one nice. . . *sigh* im happy again. . .

wow what a great two days off. . . there's so much to say about it that im not even going to bother trying to write about it in here. . . those of you who are interested in it can just give me a call and get updated :) let me just say for those of you who arent previleged enough to have my contact number just need to know that it was very relaxing ( Read more... )

so i tried to have a nice relaxing night last night. . . it didnt go that well. . . i know i did it to myself but still, so much drama when there was no fuckin need for it. . . why the hell did she act like that, that was kind of fucked up. . . she's not my g/f and frankly, my business is none of her business. . . it's just sex, and unfortunatly i ( Read more... )

so the chest pains are back again. . . im obviously stressed out again to my breaking point. . . i gotta get out of this city for a little while. . . im 25, shit almost 26. . . im not going to die in this hell hole of a city. . . i called my mom to set up an appointment for our family heart doctor. . . time to go in and get my lecture about how ( Read more... )

so im still single. . . and still loving it. . . i dont want a relationship, the only problem is some one ive been seeing is giving me the feeling that she wants one. . . i hope not, i told her that's not what i want. . . im having fun being out and seeing people. . . variety is nice. . . besides, i dont even know this girl. . . and if i were to ( Read more... )

great. . . i can never really do anything right. . . i guess you all can add parinoia to my long list of fucked up attributes. . . in my crazy paranoid way of thinking i may have inadvertantly caused conflict with my friend and her very dear significant other. . . im sorry. . . it was a problem that was confusing for all involved due to wording of ( Read more... )

blah, i hate monday mornings. . . this sucks. . . mo didnt call last night. . . oh well. . . treated gio out to some pool last night. . . that was fun. . . he's getting better. . . set up a money game for next week. . . should be fun. . . set up a date for saturday, two very attractive bi-sexual girls. . . should make for a very interesting evening ( Read more... )

what a fucked up night. . . oh well, im goin to try to not dwell on the fact that i had a very hot south african girl for the taking and i lost her. . . blah. . . had a pleasent surprise though. . . went to the pool hall and ran into mo. . . that was real nice after everything that happened. . . hopefully we get to see eachother tonight. . . at ( Read more... )