i am completely and utterly depressed. i have a billion friends and i feel alone. i have the biggest feeling of emptiness and pain and everything in my stomach. i'm only 21 and i feel like this. this is when i'm supposed to be having fun. i can't have fun. i fake happiness so much. every laugh. every smile. i don't wanna be depressed and an angry ( Read more... )

I highly doubt anyone even reads this. Does anyone even go on this site anymore? Nope. That's why I write on here. I can write whatever I want and no one is gonna read it. I could talk about how depressed I am, how worried I am about my grandma, how my family thinks I'm a liar and I betray them whenever I can, how all of the guys I've liked in the ( Read more... )

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1. Ever kissed a brown eyed and brown haired person ( Read more... )

Today is probably the happiest I've been a long long time. Ian called me! He's been in Afghanistan since August. I've talked to him on Facebook, but he actually called me today. I was so happy. He called me from a number I didn't know and I almost didn't pick up. I'm obviously very happy that I picked up the phone. We got to talk for about 40 ( Read more... )

basics…
:x: name: Beth
:x: height: 5'2
:x: shoe size: 8 1/2 or 9
:x: hair color: Brown
:x: siblings: none
:x: eyes: Blue
:x: high school: Lutheran Westland
:x: jr.high: St. Michael Lutheran Wayne
:x: elementary: St. Michael Lutheran Wayne
:x: hometown: Garden City
:x: favorite place: LA or Orlando
:x: favorite soda: Cherry Coke
:x: game system: XBox
:x: favorite ( Read more... )

Sooo I wrote out this whole long ass post, but livejournal erased it. I'm pissed. Basically, I'm just gonna be writing in here a lot more. I missed writing on here. It's a outlet for all my stress.  I registered for classes today and got my payment plan set up. I'm extremely happy =D Things are so confusing right now. Friends are getting weird and ( Read more... )

Spring Break is officially over. 
It sucks. I had some fun. My parents and I went to Niagara Falls. 
Weather was crappy, but we dealt with it.

So next year, I am going to Western Michigan University 
with Kristine, Vicki, and probably Rachel. Kristine and I 
are going to be room mates. It should be fun.

I'll write more later. I'm too tired for this.
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so this year has had some ups and downs.
God has blessed me with all that I have and need.
i've gotten closer with some friends and drifted from others.
my grades are basically still the same. i'm happy i don't have a math class.
it doesn't seem like i'm going to college in 8 months. 
i don't even know where i'm going yet.
everyone keeps asking me.
i have ( Read more... )