going through life on your own terms is definitely the way to accomplish all that you wish and desire. spending the past god knows how many years blindly saying to myself, "this is what i want. i'm happy knowing i have no idea where i'm going". the past 8 days however have shown me more potential and growth then i over thought possible. i'm happy. ( Read more... )

I miss a few people. Differences and seperations blow a big one..

*Dear God,
Please hold them close to you in your persevernce.
Allow them the safety of your light and the strength to hold on to the truth.
Thank you for granting me them in this life.
My love in you*

for the first time it feels good to have a change in my life. i haven't written anything, not a journal entry, school paper (maybe b/c i'm not in school, but w/e), a note, nothing in so long. mariela was over at my house earlier this week and i helped her write a paper for school. it was absolutely awesome. like freshman year awesome. and being in ( Read more... )

Though dreams can be deceiving
like faces are to hearts
they serve for sweet relieving
when fantasy and reality lie
too far apart

you stand, you sit, you wait patiently for something, never actually grasping that you're reaching for nothing. its an empty space. an abbis (sp) that forever taunts you with its presence. i'll never understand what it is that i'm doing, just that it is never enough for most people. its not enough to just live.. rather you must please. day to day ( Read more... )

if its so good for me, then why does it still hurt so badly? it was obvious from the beginning that it wasn't right, but i so wanted to make it that way. it could have worked. if you want it that badly then it should happen.. it wasn't.. i gave up. i was told i was giving up, and i just did what i thought was best for me. seeing it tonight hurt. a ( Read more... )

once again i have to eat what is inside me for the sake of what is best for others.. i hate this feeling.
the feeling of uncertainty and longing is so over rated to me now.. i definitely need something new..

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EVERYTHING ( Read more... )

Horoscope of the day: Still trying to make peace between warring factions -- or worse, between family members? Either way, you've got your work cut out for you, and not much time to do it. If anyone can pull this off, however, it's you ( Read more... )

being called out on your down falls and short comings is a bitch.. but necessary sometimes. just sucks that i've already been in this funk-d-fied thinking mood for a while, knowing within myself what i've needed to, and then someone lays it all out for you.. like BLAM: here's what i see is wrong with you. *sigh* oh well, atleast now i know its not ( Read more... )