new journal...again!

soy_loca_chica

i had a dream i shouldn't have had last night.

i don't really want to give up a chance at modeling, but i don't think i'd have the time nor energy to devote to both dancing and modeling. so...for now i guess i'll say goodbye to modeling.

i want to dance.

AHHH!!!!! I WANT TO TAKE DANCE LESSONS AGAIN!!!! Stupid parents don't want to pay for it though because they think it's a "waste". T_T I desperately need a job so I can start dancing again...I haven't stopped thinking about dancing since going to Jeren's house yesterday. When Justine asked if I could help choreograph dances for her 18th, I was ( Read more... )

Today was a pretty interesting day. First, I worked at the library. While I was there, this gangsta guy kept friggin' hitting on me. Woopee. Anyways, he asked me out to go for ice cream next wednesday. He's a pretty cool kid, and hey! It's free ice cream, so why not? I doubt I'll go, but I might just take him up on his offer ( Read more... )

i've put up a fake front of liking him, even though it's not true. i think i just told everyone i liked him just because. i think i'm just forcing myself to like him, but i don't. i don't get excited to talk to him or see him. i know that feeling of when you like someone. as cliche as it is, your heart races just by thinking about them and when you ( Read more... )

[]Travel to Japan ( Read more... )

i found a picture. and then i stopped everything i was doing, and got lost staring at it.

i can't believe how things have changed.

Today, I grew up a lot. From the moment I got out of bed, to the end of tonight. I feel infinite, more knowledgeable, and ready to do anything for the days to come. I learned a lot of things today from the most random events and sources, it's amazing that I've learned a lot of life's lessons in one day. And not just learning them, but actually ( Read more... )

huh, well. WELCOME SUMMER. i feel unsatisfied with things. i really do.