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I'm rewatching Vampire Knight and finished season one in two days. I can't handle how fucking hot scenes like this are, though, animated or not.
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Not quite morning screwdriver!
But the good news is: before bed screwdriver with a few ativan, after a horridly anxious therapy appointment and a weekend full of me desperately trying not to shatter anything and everything i could reach. It's been an hour and i'm noticeably wobbly in the mind, but unfortunately awake still ( Read more... ) -
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FUCK PSYCHOANALYSIS
I have oft considered slitting my wrists - parallel, not perpendicular since I've done my research - but after the conversation I had with my psychoanalyst this morning that would be like letting my child molester jizz all over my arms, which I wretch to even consider ( Read more... ) -
Fenris is still a badass, though, so I must be, too
Eric broke my feelings of dapper sophistication for drinking wine instead of rum or vodka lately by calling me a "wino" at Target while I picked out recork-bits and a decent corkscrew. I am cry. He's also kinda right. This is my 3rd bottle in four days.
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Barefoot red wine is much easier to recork than Apothic Red. Sadly, this time I already drank 3/4 of it. I'm learning to drink red wine: in theory because it looks like blood, but really it's too damn purple to be right ( Read more... ) -
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Fourteen years ago I didn't let myself commit suicide because I reasoned that if I want something that bad, I don't deserve it.
Now I wish I had done it then. I'd go back in time and do it because now I NEED IT THAT BAD AND THE PEOPLE AROUND ME DON'T DESERVE THAT.
