I've finally decided that I do want to go back to school. Like 100% for sure. Just talking to Nora cheered me up so much today. My friends are so different at school, but it's a kind of different I need. Surprisingly though, I am going to miss my house and my family the most- even as I'm in a huge fight with my mother right now. So weird.

so much for sleeping tonight. and new years eve is tomorrow and I have done no reflecting on the past year or make any resolutions for 2008. ha. like i'm actually going to.

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catch 22, love.

I introduced my mother to the wonderful world of Helen Keller and Anti-feminist jokes tonight.
I AM SO OBSESSED WITH THE HILLS.
I am having a blast over break!

tonight i really really really wished i had my car.

Zaiahzaiah (10:56:37 PM): oh ok. i thought you may have dated way back, during the "what a cute little boy, oh wait thats allie" phase and then she found out you were a girl.
rrrebirths (10:57:12 PM): oh see this is when i'd give you the finger
Zaiahzaiah (10:57:59 PM): haha, its ok cause its like the ugly duckling, you turned out ok.

yeah, its kinda like that.

I really tried to get myself to feel something for lack of feelings anything at all lately. And I should of been satisfied with the fact that I didn't- because that would of meant I was over it. But I couldn't stop there, and now I feel it again. I'm listening to all the old songs. But it's alright because this isn't real, I'm just lonely.

I have konststine back in my lifeeee. I don't know HOW it didn't transfer from my computer at home to this one, but I have it back now. And now I will go listen to it, cry, and everything will be okay. <3