haven't written in awhile. deepest apologies. i feel i should really take the time to update now that it is a new year blah blah. i think i should start using this journal again as a journal should be used: to voice complaints i don't want to really bother people with. but i won't be too negative, i promise ( Read more... )

okay, what was i just saying, how happy i am? madness! i was happy for about a month. everything was going great. Now i feel like i'm losing my mind. i'm having awful mood swings, depression, and my obsessions have become unbearable. for the first time in my life i'm actually considering seeing a professional. the worst part is that my happiness is ( Read more... )

i'm updating to get that old entry out of view ( Read more... )

merry xmas to everyone.

i got so much cool stuff and actually had a good day with the family.

my boyfriend is the best and i love him so much ;)

i'm in a great mood after this weekend. pacsun party was amazing minus the part where i was throwing up for 10 mins straight. ugh. rob made me an amazing drink that didn't sit too well. some highlights include: laughing sooooo much at christina head banging while losing terribly at beer pong, james sitting in the corner sulking, amy and i trying to ( Read more... )

finally i put a pic on that looks like me. who knows how often i will be updating though. school is coming soon. i only got 3 classes. bleh ( Read more... )

no really it's fine. i don't need any of my friends to come down to the beach. i know everyone has good reasons (like dee, this isn't to you). i can't help but feel sad that only sean and liz will be able to come down. even lynette offered to come down. like what the hell. most of my good friends are unable to make it but people i barely know can. ( Read more... )

this is it! i just have to get through this week and i will be OK. it doesn't help that i am working everyyyy day (sometimes twice a day). one would think that i won't even have any energy for the events next week. BUT thankfully i work with drug users and a dealer. i made the deal of the century- a 24 pack of whip-its for a good amount of aderol. ( Read more... )

i'm so bored i think i'll do this ( Read more... )

i am so sad. i knew today was going to be an awful day but i wasn't planning on needing emergency medical attention for poor prada. this morning she was really sleepy (as she has been quite lethargic lately) and having some abnormalities when she does her business to say the VERY least. so i had to take her to my mom asap so that she could go to ( Read more... )