I really want a job. I want to work. I really do. Unfortunately I am unhirable. The only thing I seem to be good for is delivering Pizzas but those jobs are rare at best. What hurts me now is my school schedule. I got turned down for a job on-campus because of my availability. I've applied for 3 other jobs but I haven't heard anything back yet. I ( Read more... )

It seems as though I have made it through my first real medical situation at school. I know where to go in case of emergency and I won't have to deal with hospitals. I'm lucky I was smart enough to go and see a doctor. Cellulitis is no joke. Although being called gimpy the rest of my life would be an interesting change from spanky. For the ( Read more... )

Me and Gina broke it off last week. I've been a mess ever since. This is what happens when you hold in your emotion. The cruel part about it though is she hasn't thought of me since. I'm fairly sure she's already moved on. I really did like her and it saddens me that it had to end. We had so much potential to grow off each other and make something ( Read more... )

I remember why I am nervous to go back to school.....

If I get sick I'm on my own in New York City. There won't be anyone there to help me except the system.

I get so jealous of people in steady relationships. I think it's because I know somewhere deep down that I will never be in one. It's the one thing I want in my life, to just have some companionship. It's the one thing that just seems to be impossible for me to achieve. Girls are never interested in me, they only think they might but then ( Read more... )

Sigh. Such a nice Father's Day out ( Read more... )

I wish businesses were just fucking honest about whether they have job openings or not. There was a flier that my sister picked up for me about this deli position at a local shop rite. It said no experience necessary, apply online. So I did and I got a letter in the mail this afternoon saying ( Read more... )

I didn't make 3.0 this semester. I made 2.86. I lost my scholarship ( Read more... )

I'm home.

Nothing really changes.

The same fears still linger.

The same continuous dance is still being performed.

The only difference is there is a new add-on to the backyard.

Another Friday night. The last one in Brooklyn for awhile. I look back on this semester and I see all the things that have happened. Some good some bad. All in all it was an experience. Even though I'm still lonely right now, there's hope that someday I won't be alone walking by myself staying inside my head. Someday I'll find someone to share my ( Read more... )